wad the hell is HOME

im angry. indeed i am. im seriously tired. tired of this life of living without
freedom. im tired of being down their Freaking control. isnt it enough that im
always home? isnt it enough that i only go out on weekends? isnt it enough
that i try my best to do things that wun waste too much of YOUR money?
wad more do u wan frm me? cant i have my own LIFE!???!

im pissed. i hate u. i hate my life.
i noe. i noe i should show u RESPECT. but sumtimes i wonder, y should i when
i dun get respect frm u? y should i respect sumone who duno her limits?
y should i respect sumone who duno how to respect others? i dun wish to say
juz respecting me. but she dun even noe how to respect others. simple respect
of nt lookin at ppl's wallet without asking. SHE DOESNT NOE! does she deserve
MY respect?

i wish i was rebellious. i wanna get out, OUT of this life i have. sumtimes i need
space to do things i wish to do. sumtimes i need a life that i can really say its mine.
but i cant. everything i do, everything i say, how i behave, its all coz of YOU!
im so self conscious coz of ur endless words of DISCOURAGEMENT.
im so judgemental coz YOU judge ppl.
sumtimes i dun like sharing wad i hav with josh coz YOU dun share things with me.
you deem wad u buy IS YOURS. u say wad i hav u can take. but when i take sth frm u?
wad DO I GET? YOU can go m'sia with YOUR frens. CAN I? NO!
dun say travel. juz stayin AT FREAKIN SENTOSA oso CANT!
i dun believe when u were younger u nv stayed at any chalet. I WUN BELIEVE U!
have i stayed before? yea sure. with FAMILY! wad fuckin fun is that? when can i do sth
i wan without YOU ard?!

borrowed vcds frm ms veena. obviously is to watch right? n wad time do i hav to watch in
the afternoon? i watch dad say i nv help at home. so i watch at night. i watch with my com.
wads WRONG WITH THAT! if i dun watch i borrow for wad? n u can ask me: "u dun wanna
watch then return to ppl la." since when i DUN wanna watch? i watch at night u scold. watch
in the day oso scold. WAD U WAN!!????? ARRGH!

YES! I HATE THIS HOME. coz it nv felt like one. it nv did. 20 yrs. IT NEVER DID!