a series of unfortunate events

today wasnt such a gd day for me. everything juz doesnt seems to be
right for me. wanted go airport take some photos for info design.
but when on 858 to airport, took out cam, SHIT! no batt. yesterday
night there was stil batt. i gt no idea y this morn dun hav. sigh. so wasted
trip. i slpt half way thru the bus ride. n guess wad. i wanted stop at
terminal 1 and walk ard. i overslpt!!! nvm. tts juz one.
went to sch. asked kenny, paul, grace if they free to acc me eat my lunch.
none was free. so nvm. i eat lunch myself. super boring. when i finish,
went up to studio n saw shawn to realise that he was free!! y din i tink of him?
dumb ass. anyway, pete sam was in the studio with his students. guess wad
he call me!!! 'hey nat, u look diff.' -_____-" my reply: 'nat ur head la. aiyo.
bad memory' den teng hong remind him. 'her name starts with M'
pete starts pondering hard n finally a reply. 'oh MILDRED!' n he breaks out in a
loud laughter. lol.
class ended early today. so i tot i go surprise dar. i followed grace to the lib. make
some noise with bro boon den head to ps. grace went meet her sick gf. heh.
reach there abt 6. so juz hang awhile den dear came out le. =) as usual i surprised
him. heh. but den.... i gt a surprise frm tooo. n its nt a pleasant one.
me: "so dar ur mum gt cook?"
dar: "huh? cook? i gt prac!"
me: "wad? u nv say?"
i was upset. really. coz i wanted go out. to esplanade. oh well. i cried. n dar wasnt
talkin to me in a very nice tone anyway. stood there totally no idea where to
head to. finally n alittle reluctantly. i follow him to his prac. oh well. gt a knock
on the amplifier at his church. kinda hit the nerves. sigh. pain. after sitting there
til 930 i head home. dar lend me sum money to grab a cab home. gt home at ten.
director of design sch, mr moses msned me n.....WISHED ME HAPPY BELATED
BIRTHDAY juz now! how cool~!!!
to add another one more! dar actually say he tok to me on the fone tonight.
once again. hes tired n off to slp. so once again its goin to be 'another day'.

crazy gals do crazy things.

have u ever watch a show n start cryin coz it makes u tink
whether those things wil happen in real life. broken marriage,
though two person r in love but sum things juz dun work out etc.?
sigh. one tree hill made me cry. i duno y. but juz made me think
of wad if i get into a failed marriage? a man that wun always be
there for u? yes. im afraid of getting hurt. who dun? sometimes
love is such a unpredictable thing. i wish i can hear him say he'll
nv leave me. wil he? i lost him once. feeling was terrible. yes
though i made myself get on with my life then but it nv fails to come
back n haunt me. now that we're back together. im happy. i feel
blissful, happy that hes back into my life. back into his arms.
and him into mine. but i sometimes i cant help but think of the hurt
i gt. how he ignored me. how he tell me he cant go on. how he
kept so many things frm me.
anyway, today met up with dear for lunch. chelle was suppose to join
us but shes late. dear went back office she stil haven reach. yea, i confess
i was angry for a moment. but the usual me nv get angry for long. heh
so by the time she reach im ok already. =) we went to buy sum stuffs
at spotlight n giordano at plaza sing. den head down to orchard to shop.
went far east to get her skirt n top. we were approached by model
agencies. all together three times while walkin frm far east to orchard mrt
thru the tunnel. we went to sit at wisma mac for awhile. singin n dancin
to the songs in chelle's hp. 'raindrops r falling on my head.' heh.
basically, we're juz retardeds. ;p after that we walked back to PS to meet
dear. since its almost time he finish work. we made him wear flowerpins n
our big rings. hehe. he looks kinda gayish. oops. sorry dear.
as usual, me n chelle made a fool of ourselves outside starbucks too. poor
dear hav to bear with us. hehe. i buy u blindfold k? den when we r retardeds
den u can wear. haha. alright i tink i gtg to bed. hee. gd nite all!

if only i could turn back time

finally yes im blogging. hee. sum of u may wanna noe hows my birthday.
hehe its great.
sat: met adrian only at 5pm. went suntec to get movie tickets for 'wet dreams 2'
den head to hav our dinner at kuishinbo. food theres pretty nice. though i din had
much appetite despite nt eating anything the whole day. heh. oh wells. we both
juz ate almost everything thats there. den we were full. we decided to go to the
esplanade since its stil early for our movie. so walked there. went there n caught
Deb Fung, a christian singer. was smsin dear that its really gd. heh. but hes stil
in church so i tot mayb i wun get to see him. halfway through the performance,
the fireworks started. so i gt out of my seat to find adrian whos standin behind.
the fireworks were beautiful! like star droppin down frm the sky. wonderful sight!
den we juz cont sitting behind hopin theres more fireworks.n guess wad!!! adrian
spotted dar dar. hehe. 'whos tat guy? looks familiar.' tts wad he said. den i look up
n realise its my precious one. hehe. so i called out to him. n dar came over. i so
wanted the cd by deb fung. was hinting adrian but he nv go get. juz went to see
n tell me how much. so when i see dar i juz pull his hand n say 'dar dar i wan the cd!
very nice!!' hehe. nt expecting him to buy it of coz. hehe. but he did in the end with
autograph. HOW BLESSED I AM! hehe. dar dar was cute.
he was holding my present in his hands so he keep hidin one hand behind his back.
when i see dar i juz wanted to hug him tight n kiss him but im kind enough to wait
til adrian walk away. hehe. while after that walk back for our show. its lame though
pretty funny. i see no link in the title of the show n the show itself. anyway, while
walkin to take a bus. he stop at OLIO though its closed. he asked for a cake n the
manager immediately gt the hint. heh. bought a slice of cake for me. hmm den went
bonsai garden n he light the candle with the borrowed lighter n sang me a birthday
song. after that we took a cab to elaine's place. heh.
sun: its my birthday!! hehe. i can tell u im so damn excited! though i din hav enough
slp coz deb woke up in the middle of the night cryin n davy woke up really early calling
for me. well, i was wondering wad did dear buy for me. wads in store for the day. hehe.
so i cant wait for the services to end. i meet him at the bus stop coz i couldnt get up
the bus65 he was on. so he came down instead. we gt on a cab to cine! stil duno wad
we eating. hehe. so i ask. WE GOIN SUKI RAMEN! yummy! i was so damn happy. its my
fav! hehe. dear noe me best. hehe. i was contented. oh when in the cab dear told me
one surprise, that is he gt tickets for NDP!! im so damn happy. cant wait to see the
beautiful fireworks. hehe. n the wonderful pretty performance live! haha. after which
we went to catch our movie 'fantanic four' nice!! much better den stupid wet dreams.
hehe. den we juz hang ard heeren for awhile. den decided to head to esplanade already.
the first performance wasnt very nice so we walked away after awhile. took pics ard
esplanade. so fun. hee. den after that we went back to see the second performance
by the Lao Langs. heh. very nice performance. great voices. started walkin to merlion
when performance ended. juz enjoyin the breeze. den decided to go back. dear send
me home coz all my presents that day were too heavy i juz cant manage on my own.
so dear send me to the door n left to get a cab home. its a wonderful night. full of
memories. touched by the present he gave. surprises he planned. the running ard
to get the CD i wan. I LOVE U SO MUCH DAR! u mean the world to me.
i swear ur birthday wil be well planned. n u're enjoy urself as much as i did on my birthday.
heres some of the pics taken...


mon: i went meet dar for lunch coz i was on MC. den went to chelle's place. played
with rex. hehe hes really cute man. after that i went to city hall to meet mum n my bro.
heh. shopping time. these are sum things i bought.

heres rex!!!

today dear is sick. sad.

The Three Things.

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD

1) milky

2) milly

3) princess

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF

1) my hair

2) my eyes

3) my crappiness

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF

1) my tummy

2) my fat fingers

3) my lack of determination

THREE THINGS YOU WISH YOU HAD RIGHT NOW

1) MC

2) more time for work

3) a genie that could grant me wishes.

THREE PARTS OF MY HERITAGE

1) chinese

2) cantonese

3) royal blood

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU

1) death

2) failing

3) breakups

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS

1) handphone

2) rings

3) wallet be it empty or not heh.

THREE THINGS YOU'RE WEARING RIGHT NOW

1) jeans

2) old school tank shirt

3) my ring

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS/ARTISTS AT PRESENT

1) Deb Fung - Eternity

2) Corrine May - Little Superhero Girl

3) Edwin Mccain - I'll Be

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS

1) get rid of the tummy

2) go australia to study

3) get rid of a particular someone

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP -- LOVE IS A GIVEN

1) warmth

2) laughter

3) trust

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE

1) im in love.

2) i have a 3 yr old kid at home.

3) im sick in the mind.

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU

1) eyes

2) hair

3) smile

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE SAME SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU

1) humour

2) laughter

3) sister!

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO

1) sleep before the next day comes

2) stop loving him

3) using the com every night

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES

1) sitting at esplanade outdoor theatre

2) graphic designing

3) shopping

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW

1) takin care of him

2) sleep

3) heck abt the assignments

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING

1) graphic designer

2) model

3) fashion consultant

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION

1) france

2) paris

3) hawaii

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE

1) to make myself happy

2) to make him feel loved

3) to say my last 'i love u' to him

wanna noe wad i tink abt u?

taken from cal:
01. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie/icon reminds me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal
leave a comment n i'll reply u. =)

.....im speechless

went meet chelle at her place after sch today. she brought rex down.
hes cute. really like a baby. esp the way chelle carry him.
im bored stiff the whole night. sad news is adrian might nt be able
to celebrate my bday with me tmr. wadeva. so theres a 50% risk
of stayin home to rot til night. wil be goin elaine's hse to stay coz
baby sitting on sun. guess that might brighten up my day. haiz.
im in a bad mood. bye.

shopping time!

went shopping today with chelle. fun fun. went to shop for presents.
den shop for ourselves. hehehe. she bought a nice nice red bikini. the
prize is worth it man. hee. better than the one at top shop. though the
aunty at the shop has quite a bad attitude but after awhile of tokin to her
shes nice. really. gives u great suggestions, n she really noe her stuffs well.
before that we were at topshop, juz tryin lotsa clothes that we like. of coz
we're nt buying any. hahaha.

we shop til i din even realise the time passed so fast. y is it everytime we
go out together, time seems to pass really fast. n its really alot of laughter
n fun. hee.
im goin to the ACM tmr morning. goin to meet april n justin there at eleven.
hee. im really happy today. lynn liked 4 of wad i hav sketched. really
pleased with myself. hee. class ended early so head down to PS. its like one
of my hang out place if i gt lotsa time to spare now. hee.

life goes on...

well, i've been havin much fun the past few days. im quite lazy to actually
say it in detail. went out twice with chelle, doin nothin much but it was time
enjoyed. love her company. failed to surprise dar after his work twice.
i finally did today. after standin outside for an hr. coz he work OT. nvm im a
patient gal when comes to waiting for my bf. hehe. actually im patient even if
its my fren. right chelle? anyway, waited frm 6 to 7 n finally see dar n his surprised face.
heh he called his mum n ask if he could eat out coz she cooked already. so sweet of u dear.
n sorry aunty. dar tot of goin my hse there eat den send me back since its nearer to
my place frm PS. so we went to the coffee shop to eat. den he send me back.
im so happy. its been so long since he send me hme. n he wanted see tortie, so i
ran up n brought tortie n tigger down. after hugging n kissin bye duno how many times.
he left. n i juz went to bathe n started doin work.
anyway, class ended in half an hr today. so went meet kenny n paul n paul's two other frens
for lunch. i nv eat. hated the queue. actually i nv eat anything til dinner. anyway,
kenny went class while i rot in studio for awhile. den meet him to acc him go cut his hair.
den went back sch to see lecturer abt the attendance. sigh. den acc shawn eat coz he was
in the studio n too happy to see me. so i tot i shall go acc him before meetin kenny.
since kenny oso gt paul. heh. so after shawn finish eatin i went meet kenny n paul. went
to paul's lab there n rot the time away. n im off to PS. *end of my day* (gt more
before my class but too lazy to type)
my birthday is juz next sun. finally it falls on a weekend. nice. i cant wait.
duno wads it goin to be like. dar dar plannin surprise? heh. wad presents am i
goin get? damn i feel like being a little kid jumpin for joy when i see my presents
and open them. =)
im worried abt my attendance for visual literacy. hope i wun get debarred. sigh.
im cranky n tired now. sorry dar for being retarded juz now on the fone.
off to bed now. gd nite all.

today is BLUE day. its lunch with dar tmr. bye for now.

fenyi is goin back on wed midnight. sigh wun see her til i duno when again.
really miss her. anyway tink might be goin dinner with her, karen n marv tmr.
we'll see.

what kind of bikini r u?

You Are a Boy Shorts Bikini! You're a sexy girl - but not the type that likes to let it all hang out. You are in to a little of everything at the beach - swimming, tanning, playing And when you're running around, you'll be sure your butt isn't falling out of your suit What Kind of Bikini Are You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

missing my beloved gong gong.

as some of u may already noe, my grandpa passed away on sat mornin.
the funeral juz ended today. i tink i lost alot of slp the past few days.
i miss gong gong. though i may nt have alot of memories of him as karen
had, but i rem him as sumone who loves this family. he always wanna
fix the things at home himself. hes the only one who rems abt dar
during chinese new yr.
gong grew weaker abt 2 yrs ago if i nv rem wrongly. i rem he was in
ICU for ten days when i was in thailand during my mission trip.
gt an sms that he may die. i was so afraid then that i cant see him for
the last time. but he survive. his health was deteriorating for the past
few months. he juz celebrated his 80th bday two weeks ago. sat mornin,
when i reach n see him lyin on his bed motionless, i cried. i wish that
he wil move n tok to us. but he cant do that anymore. that scene is
stil remaining in my mind. its hard to forget. i wish i hav had more time
to get to know him more.
was lookin at the chinese new yr photos that fenyi developed for us.
lookin at the one that all the grandchildren standin behind him n por por.
i really miss him. juz seein his smile i noe that hes really happy that we're
all there.
now all we can do is miss him. im lookin forward to the day that i go heaven
n wil be able to meet him again.

today as i see the coffin roll into the fire. i was so afraid to see the door shut
so loud with fire flying out. but im glad i cant see all that. (i saw another
relative's cremation n i heard the loud shutting of the fire door) if i did i'll
probably cry even more. even marv cried. everyone cried. tink its
the first time i see marv shed a tear. until now while typin this, im stil cryin.
dar dar is sick. went to meet him at his place. actually wanted to celebrate his
graduation with him since i couldnt attend today but he sick so stayed at his place.
he was so hot when i held his hand. he took his temperature. it was 37.6 i tink.
pretty worried abt him. hope he'll get better tmr. if hes nt den i'll bring him to the doc.

im pretty tired now. tink im off to dreamland to meet dar.

what flavour lip gloss r u?

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happy happy.

yday was a really fun day. hee. spend the whole day with dar dar.
how nice. went shoppin at suntec. he bought a pants and 2 shirts.
chosen by ME! hee. i mean the colours. hee. green n light blue.
nice nice. *proud of myself*
haha. dar is startin work next week. abit sad coz its my term break.
but its ok. goin to be bored in sch. sigh. nt goin let mum noe i gt
term break. if nt im goin to be stuck at hme. n tts sickening. i rather
be out n bored. guess i wun be seein n goin out with dar dar as much
once he start work. class end early cant go dar hse slack. hmmm...
back to yday. heh. after suntec we decided to go back his place n rent
a movie to watch. took a bus back to his place n he cycled with me
sitting in front to the vcd shop near sch. its so fun but abit scary when
he brakes. i wanna sit again. ;p FUN FUN FUN! hee.
we rented 'racing stripes' to watch. its cute. heh. zebra tinkin its a
racing horse. hahaha. interesting. i tink im a gorilla. muahahs. oops.
out of point. hee. ok. err oh his mum cooked dinner. haa.
den i slack abit at his place den went hme. heh. tts all.
today nothing much. i managed to reach sch in an hr. my lucky day.
every bus came the moment i reach the bus stop. how lucky am i.
for the first time i reach earlier den my lecturer!!! (im always an hr late)
hehehe. after class, went canteen eat with ade n shawn. i bought sum
cup noodles that taste super disgusting frm the drink store. had to get tea
to clear the taste. after sitting at the canteen n bitch ard for awhile, we
went to bedok reservoir n continue chit-chatting. juz lyin n sitting on the grass.
we went studio n slp after awhile. coz cant take the heat. hehehe.

more quiz this time with him.

Love and Your Sweetheart

Here is the analysis:

This man is a sporty type. He has a strong heart and easily comes to terms with the truth. He likes sport and physical challenges, and quickly gets bored with routine. As for women, he gets bored if they are too formal and proper. You need to be enthusiastic and ready to be spontaneous as the occasion requires it. He enjoys activities such as bush walking or rock climbing, so to keep the relationship running smoothly you should give them a go.

Is He The One For You?

Success Rate In Relationships: 69%

Your relationship is moving forward. Just don't trip over.

You and him would be typical young lovers. It would not be all sweet and romantic if you got together, sometimes you would argue or get confused, but those elements would only make your relationship more exciting. At the moment you are probably assuming that he likes you, but sometimes you might not be so sure. Don't worry, you can be sure that he also feels the same way. When both of you sense special feeling towards each other, your relationship is certainly growing. What you should do is try to express your feelings a little more and learn more about him.

get to know yourself better.

A quiz i did. getting to noe urself better
Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship. The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

The Real Me.
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

What's your personality love style?
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

What type of personality do u have?
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

grumpy.

today's class was juz wastin time. really. she nv teach anything.
juz us sitting there doin our work. shes mad i tink. for a moment shes
nice. den next moment shes scoldin us. total bitch tts wad my fren call her.
tok nonsense. so lazy. stil tok wad! stupid woman. stupid kristine.

i dun hate u. but i dun like u. hmpf.

anyway, went to tan today. nt very black yet. i wanna be charcoal.
mr sun thanks ah. i wan to be black. roast me k.

plans for tmr: goin back to inspire to help them find a file.
wait for ray ray to finish work at 1. den head down to city hall with him.
while waitin for joanne to finish work. which wil be ard 4 plus.
den hang ard with her. den gonna go church by 7.
sounds like a packed day.
IM GRUMPY.

mums can be so fuckin irritating that u juz wish u can slap her or use
super glue to shut her up. i hope u die soon really. i cant stand u anymore
bitch! fuck off frm my room if u cant stand it. nobody ask u to pack it for me.
n wads wrong with goin sch early? is there such a fuckin big problem there?
that u hav to nag n nag n say so much abt it? ass hole.
there was peace til u came hme!!! tts how irritating u r mum!