peace be with me.

the feeling of jumpin off is back again. once again i feel upset.
upset with how my life is. upset with things happening.
upset with many things.

y is there such a big change? now i realise u hated everything.
mayb if things din start i wun want it. y is sendin me hme becomin such a chore?
things r becomin so different. i do hate it.

y tink of it as im being unreasonable when i complain abt u goin out late.
coz i wasnt. all i wanted was for u to slp. y cant tink that im caring abt u?
instead of thinkin im controllin u.

i am bothered by wad ppl say of me. i am bothered even if u speak up for me.
i dun understand y jennie has such a big mouth.
i guess i cant trust anyone nowadays right.
esp her. i trusted her with my past. but seems like i juz found out she din keep it to herself.
but she 'helped' me announce to ppl. am i suppose to say thanks?
worse thing is who is she to say abt my past. esp since she noes no shit.
she juz tink im the one who make use of my bfs. but who is she to say that?
she dun even noe my bfs. she dun even noe wad goes on.
(*name of the person i tokin abt is fake here.)

can frens be trusted nowadays?
i dun tink i really trust anyone.
nt even my own bf sumtimes. y do i feel like everyone is putting up a front in
front of me? is it juz me or is it they r really doin so.

if only sumone can ans all my doubts. other den god who i dun even trust now.

choose ur destiny.

wad kinda guy is best?
is it a man who plays sports like nobody's business?
a man who nv fails to miss any soccer match on tv?
a man who is almost addicted to playin computer games?
a man who does all of the above?
or a man who does none?

u decide ur own destiny.
each has its own bad points.
depends on which u can stand most.
mayb i prefer one who does none.
but den again. is he really a man?
mayb watchin soccer matchs aint that bad.
but can i stand it if im right beside him but hes watchin in the middle of the night.

hmmm....how abt a man who plays computer games?
that doesnt sounds that bad does it?
or does it not?

i've gt a man that plays computer games.
almost every single day.
as long as he has nothin to do.
there he goes playin games.
he can stay late at frens' place til the next morning juz playin games.
sumtimes i wonder wads so fun?!

bang bang u die. yeah i won. does this sound fun to u?
im nt so sure.

perhaps its juz me. i dun like it if u stay up til 5,6am juz doin
sth thats nt important.
studyin is fine. but playin games? nah. i cant stand it.
i noe he wil read this but im stil goin to say.
SLPIN is more important than PLAYIN GAMES!
one day, im goin to find myself marrying a man whos close to blind.
and y is that so? coz he face the com too much.
im goin to stp tokin now. coz wads there to tok abt?
alright off to slp i go.
its the only way to pretend u r dead. so u wun be irritated with anything.

i've been with many different men in my life.
almost all that i have named.
sportsman, computer games freak, both or none.
i guess i cant decide which is best for me either.
"ur future lies in ur hands."
does this sound so right? boy it does.

alone.

where r all my frens? i seems lost all the time.
i hate feeling lonely. i hate seeing ppl goin out with frens.
i have no frens. no one to share my joys n sorrows.
sumtimes having a bf dun mean anything.
frens r important. bf sumtimes cant be relied on.

i feel like im in a dilema. leave or not?
stay or not? hang on or turn away.
i feel like im breakin down.
like a break down train. out of no where,
out of no reasons, suddenly it juz stop. n it cant work.
he reminds me of sumone im afraid to face.
when things go wrong.

i feel ashamed since that day. i feel like i cant face ppl now.
i feel like hiding my face. i really wanted to.
wad wil ppl say? wad will ppl think?
even ppl close to me. wad r they really thinkin in their minds?
i really duno. i feel like everyone is like strangers.
i duno wads goin on in their minds. i really cant figure.
who can i really trust? i cant even trust the one who died for me.
who else can i really trust. i cant even trust myself anymore.
i duno wads goin on. i really dun.
im breakin down to pieces.
may sumone stick them back when they find the pieces.

meaning of lies.

dun say wad u dun mean.
dun say wad u wun do.
dun say wad wun happened.
dun giv excuses for nt doin sth.
it doesnt work this way.

say wad u mean.
say wad u wil do.
say wad wil happened.
excuses wun be needed.
all are happy.

empty promises hurts.
it breaks the trust we have.
im disappointed in you.
that i duno wad else to say.

dead.

pls kill me before i kill myself.

suicidal mind.

blame it on stress.

hols or nt?

this week is suppose to be so called my holiday.
or is it a holiday at all?
been thinkin hard abt my advertising. tryin to solve
the problem of havin to take photos.
but i guess i found the best way. hee
STOCK IMAGES!!
yeah tts wad im goin to do. i noe its cheating
but i cant be bothered already. since my fren
is goin to do so den i am doin too. haa.

anyway, i have a 'new' fone today.
realise its 'new' not new.
hee. confused? haa.
well, im using my dad's old fone now.
mummy's using my old fone.
as for daddy, the lucky fellow.
he is using the newest fone that mummy bought.
it cost 200+bucks! y nt they save it n buy me a plan.
wadeva. i shall nt grumble.
quite happy with my so called new fone. hee.
used to love it alot when it juz came out. tot its unique.
though now i may nt like it as much as i did,
but i stil like it more den my old 1. hee.
well im now using T610 silver. hee.

anyway, attachment wil be starting in like a week
plus. sigh. pls let me enjoy my hols!

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bad day

i duno y im feelin so moody.
im juz tired physically n mentally.
i hate work. i hate the week.
no comments.

goin slp.

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THE ONE FLAW IN WOMEN

THE ONE FLAW IN WOMEN

By the time the Lord made woman, He was into his sixth day of working overtime.
An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?"
And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?She has to be
completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable
and able to run on dietcoke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at
one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart
and she will do everything with only two hands.

"The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only two hands!? No way! And that's
just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish.

"But I won't," the Lord protested. "I am so close to finishing this creation
that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work
18 hour days."The angel moved closer and touched the woman."But you have made
her so soft, Lord."

"She is soft," the Lord agreed, "but I have also made her tough.You have no idea
what she can endure or accomplish.""Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.
The Lord replied, "Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate."

The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.
"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.I told you that you were trying
to put too much into this one."

"That's not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that's a tear!"

"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.

The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her
disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride."
The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Lord.You thought of everything!
Woman is truly amazing."

And she is! Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they
think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.

Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to
show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world
keep turning. They bring joy, hope and love. They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends. Women have vital things to say
and everything to give.

HOWEVER,
IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,

IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.