another year is here soon........

a year has pass. many things hav happen in my life frm last yr. i can say my life has changed totally. for the better definitely. sumone i love dearly has changed me. frm a gal who regrets her past, to sumone who looks forward to the future. though i dun deny tt sumtimes seein the 1 i used to love so dearly, i do stil hav a little tiny tiny tiny tiny bit of likein. bt its a diff kind of likin. juz sumone i can nv forget the hurt i gt, the love i had. its diff. seeing him reminds me of the bitterness. while im tastin the sweetness tt nv fails to show frm my dearest baby now. its so different. all i can say is im feeln really blissful now. livin in a world tt is really like a paradise. with castles, maids, beautiful gardens.

the yr i've realise many things tt has always been in my life tts so wonderful n precious. tt these things can sumtimes be so nice. im tokin abt my parents. heh. muz be wonderin y i say things when im tokin abt humans rite? haha. no reason. they hav been supportive towards this relationship. gone thru the times they dun like me being in a relationship. now things hav turn out well. they gt to noe him so much better. my grandma n everyone else hav noe him. invited him over for special occasions. im really glad. my first time.

for a relationship to really work out. we need frens n family's support. i tink its really impt. went thru too much in relationships. i understand tt. many times things turn sour because i dun hav my parents' support. sum of my frens told me tt im really a lucky gal. coz he is a really nice guy. after they hav gotten to noe him tt is. im really happy. definitely a blessin in disguise. hee. =) if u noe wad i mean. heh.

oh wells. my new yr resolulation is to get gd grades frm this sem onwards. i wanna see more As in my results slip. i wan to cont to enjoy my life with my precious 1. i wan to or hope to get sumone in sch as a best fren tt i can really tok to abt my problems. hav been upset after may n sinyi left. sch's nv the same. bt i hope it'll get back to wad it used to be.

ok for today i meet up with mr busy man( my godpa). hee. finally. went lunch with him at compasspoint. had steak at jack's place. n we ate sum appetiser. damn cool n delicious. its mushrooms topped with lobster n crab meat. with cheese!!!!! gorgerously delicious. haha. after tt he fetched me back to sch. den i went for RJ paper's talk. was late. bt i din miss out wad i really wan!. the paper samples. waited for so damn long to get them . they r like treasures to me now. haha. cant get anywhere unless go visit the paper factory itself. haha den they wil giv u. well tts abt all. i wanna start doin pixel collage soon. dun wanna do any last min work anymore. =)

gonna hand in reflective writin for arts appreciation. i missed two class out of three. really gt no idea how to write a two page long essay. can die. cant crap so much. wadvea. stil gonna do it. i gt my proposal for multimedia fund. gt no idea how to do my customer's website!!! more like i dun even noe how to do any website. -_________-"

alright im so sorry for this long entry. bt i've gt so many thoughts for this whole yr tt i cant help writin so much. haha. im endin here. take care n hav a great yr 2005!!!!!!!!

the mute

heh. dun be surprised to hear my voice sound like a guy for these few days. coz i lost my voice. n it wun be back til a week later. really hope to get well soon.

tatas. goin to bed. nites.

christmas is here!

alright alright christmas is here. is santa goin to come n giv me presents puttin them in socks? haha. welcome to the polar express!!!!!!!!!!! haha. its a cool show. like it alot. though dun really believe in santa at all. haha. hes nt real. bt i should BELIEVE! ya rite. haha. takin them all frm the show. shhhhh....

kong fu hustle is so unrealistic. din really like the show. i guess its too fake le. cannot take it. tts y i dun watch lord of the rings n matrix. heh. ok bt i enjoyed dar's company though. heh.

muz be wonderin izzit we too rich rite? can watch two shows in a day..well..polar express we watched it for free...thanks to siew hui for givin me the tickets! thank u gal!!!!! =) its a really nice show. bt its quite pointless to watch after christmas already. coz its abt the spirit of christmas. guess im nt havin tt spirit now. at least nt much. hee. blame it on sch durin this season. argh.

im sick for the past few days. bad bad bad sore sore sore throat. very sore. damn painful. really can cry kind. had slight fever bt its gone already. throat is nt healed at all. its stil bad. sigh. worse thing to come with sore throat is.............COUGH!!!!!!!!!! it hurts damn bad when i cough. its holidays bt im sick!!! hate it hate it.

sch! y do i hav sch!!!!????? if its nt becoz of sch i wun be sick at all. sickening govt. damn them. alright im goin to slp soon. cant take it anymore. throat really hurts damn bad.

-__________-"

long face me.
bad mood as i can be.
i duno wad to say bt purely confusion runs in me.
help me out with this.
go or not?

workload rising up.
stress rising now.
im ultimate sian!!

ppl stop askin me to go the party!!
i dun wanna go.
pls tel me which freak wil actually hav mood for party at a time when theres work???
it may be fun to sum of u la. nt to all wad.
-_________-"

blah blah

haha. im juz bored now so here i am writin this.
past few days were hmmmm....im weird. nt myself.
paranoid as i can be. cry baby to problems. scare myself freak.
everything weird. cried alot. quarrel alot. afraid of everything.
blah. juz nt me.

BUT im totally n absolutely ok now. haha.
super hyper. no idea y. wad drugs hav i taken. hahaha
crazy..hmm i dun wanna go for the party this sun.
argh. bt im playin. sian. wad should i do. i duno!

boring, boring, boring.

i hav work to do. bt im so damn freakin lazy. cant get my
lazy bums to work. its juz nt the mood for sch la.
holidays!!! its the christmas season.
if only its holidays n i can go out everyday. muahaha
dream on baby gal. ;p

boy am i mad? im tokin to myself. hahaha

song juz for u

Never be replaced - 1st lady

Baby I love you and i'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erase
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erase
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me too
Until the end of time
From the day I met you I know we've be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and i wanna have your kids
Thinking never compare to feel enough to kisses
I can say i'm truly happy to the same
You've made me think I'll die and live my life hesitate
There's never been no doubt in my mind
That i'll regret ever having you by my side
But if the day come that i'll have to let you go
I think that something I should probably let you know
With everything that i spent with you
Then i will miss you cuz i'm happy that i have you at all
[Repeat Chorus]
I feel for you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time


message for my precious:
a special song for the special sumone that i wil forever love. no matter wad happens. no matter how much tears i've shed, laughter i've shared with u. i wil forever love u til the end. thru trials we pull thru. i love u with all my heart n soul. with every breath i swear this wil nv change til my last breath.

sad once again

im really sian now. moody u can say. coz sumone stil nt hme. wadeva la. im nt suppose to be bothered. he complain tired tmr. i'll juz wil keep quiet.

aniwa i gt hme n bathe n juz sit infront of com tok to ppl. ask ppl do my quiz. if u haven do go try k. well sum ppl surprise me with their results. heh. oh nt forgettin i was tokin to two upset guys too. paul n marv. bt i wun say wad they upset with.

i dun understand sth. y does his frens' party always muz hav sumone drunk like shit? very fun to make ppl drunk izzit? or izzit every party is lydat? im nt sayin cant drink la. bt noe ya limits wad. now wad time le? stil nt hme. ur frens may hav nothin tmr. u hav lor!!!!! i duno la. u gt brains to think for yaself. if u say u goin to hav enough rest den so be it. SO BE IT!!! mayb its juz me la. mayb coz i myself dun stay out til so late. so im being paranoid. wadeva la.

i dare to say tt i din wan him to go at all. coz i noe he wil go hme so late. bt wad he tell me? he say he wun. gd lor. this is early k. nvm. by the time he gets hme, its at least 230am! if tts early den i gt nothing to say. im goin off. really pissed off. sorry.

maid maid

im a maid at hme.
im a princess with him.
im a sis to the rascal.
who am i?

muahaha. im so damn bored. dun bother abt me. haha. today do nothin. went out to the market with parents. yeppie yeppie yucks! wet wet chou chou. go lunch. ate sth spicy spicy. laksa!!
again?! yes again. haha. okie. went popular. pokka dottie file i got myself. hee. wil buy for him too. tmr gt sch again!! yuppie!!!!!!!! i love sch. yea in a way. bt nt projs!! no no no!!!

im mad.
im totally insane.
out of my mind!!!

MUAHAHA!!

great day

wad a beautiful n wonderful day i had. din go sch today. skipped class. haha. since my fren nt goin too. ;p went boyboy's place. hee. had an enjoyable time there. being with him is juz like im in heaven. muahaha.

tmr no sch. boring. time table haven change yet. do hope i get wad i wan. sigh.



I'll Be - Edwin mccain

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
stop me and steal my breath
emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
never revealing their depth
tell me that we belong together

thrust it up with the trappings of love
i'll be captivated, i'll hang from your lips
instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
i'll be your cryin' shoulder
i'll be love suicide

i'll be better when i'm older
i'll be the greatest fan of your life
rain falls angry on the tin roof
as we lie awake in my bed
you're my survival, you're my living proof
my love is alive

im dead
tell me that we belong together
dress it up in the trappings of love
i'll be captivated, i'll hang from your lips
instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

i've dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
tuned in, turned on, remembered the thing you said




a love song wil nv die...... juz like my love for u baby......

first day of sch

today is my first day back to sch. it was quite okie for my first lesson. at least lecturer was pretty funny. yup. bt learnt photoshop which is wad i already noe. bt nvm learn more. heh. had a director's meetin at 2 today. so lesson ended early. meetin was borin. juz hearin moses tok. i was readin my mag thru out. saw some of my frens gettin the Director's List. damn sian. y arent i able to do tt well. haiz. oh well wadeva. anyway, dar sent me hme today. most slightly wun be able see him tmr. unless class ends early. haiz. really sian to tink of it. wed no class at all. unless my new time table is out already by tmr. den i can go sch. if nt den wun see him again. thurs gt super long break again. guess i this sem cant go crusade meetin again. so wadeva. nothing new to me.

okie. enough of unhappy stuffs. im glad i gt my first three choices for my electives. i gt pixel collage, yongkin teachin. ( really nice n quiet lecturer) advertising, peter sam teachin. ( really cool lecturer). lastly i gt multimedia fund. the lecturer is quite funny. though nv been taught by him before. best of all, i gt arts appreciation. cool huh. all the things i wanted. bt im addin more subjs. hee. i hope my last sem dun nid so stress. at least can concentrate on my major project.

had dinner with dar today. went to sch early to hav lunch with him too la. tts abt all for today.

camp's over

damn it. actually wrote a long 1. bt accidentally deleted it. so im nt goin to write again. basically, camp was fun. games were gd. juz tt the camp quite disorganised. enjoyed talent night n east coast outin the most. committee n the grp leaders performed durin the talent night. very IMPROMTO. bt it turn out well.

sch reopens on mon. hols finally over. so happy. yup tts all.