2008 is here! damn!

HAPPY 2008!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but not for me...WORKING TOMORROW!
tell wads more fun than this...yay!

for u...im tired.

my black & white world...

my heart ache...
my eyes red...
drowned to the bottom of the ocean,
i wonder...
Do you still love me?

im not a girl....

singer: britney spears
title: Im not a girl, not yet a woman

Im not a girl, not yet a woman

I used to think

I had the answers to everything
Mm but now I know
That life doesnt always go my way. yeah
Feels like Im caught in the middle
Thats when I realize

Im not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While Im in between
Im not a girl

There is no need to protect me
Its time that i
Learned to face up to this on my own
Ive seen so much more than you know now
So dont tell me to shut my eyes

Im not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While Im in between
Im not a girl

But if you look at me closely
You will see it in my eyes
This girl will always find her way

Im not a girl
Im not a girl dont tell me what to believe
Not yet a woman
Im just tryin to find the woman in me, yeah
All I need is time
Whoa, all I need is time...
A moment that is mine
... thats mine
While Im in between
Im not a girl
Not yet a woman
Not now
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While Im in between

Im not a girl

Ooooh, not yet a woman

just an album

click picture above to view album.
crazily in love with u...

updates

loving sumone can be the hardest thing to do.
but...im in love with u.

We had our annual D&D beginning of this month.
had a tough time preparing for it.
stressful i must say.
a D&D where staffs stil have to work.
sumtimes its interestingly weird.
oh well. it went well. tts all that matters.
my baby was so cute. he wore a grey coat to match me.
love him. too bad we couldnt take a pic together as he was toooo busy
and had to rush off for appt straight after D&D. :(

whee! TOO HAPPY

my baby's back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

missing every bit of u

baby's in hong kong now.
missing him so badly.
but i know i'll survive through.
super tempted to call him everyday but i know i shouldnt.
hope he's doing fine.

love u darling. though you will not be reading this.
muack

ssssiiiiigggghhh

okie. im back to blogging.
haven had any mood nor time to write down my tots.
i mean sumtimes its best to keep ur tots to urself.
sumtimes even ur bf doesnt really listen.
i guess i've learnt to live my life without my bf having any time for me.
n better stil...no time to bother where i am how im doin n blah blah blah.
doesnt matter anyway. guess its juz time to quickly find a place for the better of us.
before i cant stand it anymore n decides to leave him which i'll have a hard time doin so.
sumtimes i wonder y i love him so much. sigh. love really sucks to a certain point.
theres a thin line between accepting and understanding.
bah. y do i always get affected by him not having ANYTIME for me.
i hate it!!!!!

pls save me

i duno wad im feeling
i duno if believing is wrong
i duno if my senses are right
im so tired
so drained
so in need of knowing the truth
yet im so scared to know the truth
wad if
just wad if
its true.
WHAT WILL BECOME OF ME?

im in love with u

i love you with all my heart and soul.
and i'll never let u go.

DIEDIEDIE!

i dun wanna live no more.
im juz drained n really tired.
pls end my misery.

a post of memories

i decided to do up collages of the ppl that meant alot to me today.
so here are those that i've done. its heartfelt words i put in...
its the memories i missed with all of u. hope u like them. =)
click on the picture if you cant read the words.
to maymay,

to sheryl,

to my dumb dumb,

to ning & sishi,

to donald,

to my gf chelle,

last but nt least, to my COTL frens.

sick

i've fallen sick.
vomited twice yday.
seen a doc at 11plus and its proven food poisoning.
:( feeling real weak.
plus having my monthly thingy. juz aint helping.
cold sweating everyday.
my hubby said he miss me lesser than i miss him.
haha...a lil funny. but too sad. hope he has more time for me soon.
love ya darling.

who am i? really....

who am i?
am i really ur so-called gf?
y? y does the guy i loved always put me last?
y is it im nv important to him?
y cant he tell me hes sick?
y must i find out from his fren?
y din he bother informing his GF?
WHO THE FUCK AM I?

my heart is crying. my eyes are red.
i no longer feel loved.
i feel like gf is juz a name.
im tired. im tired of caring, tired of missing, tired of loving.
i juz wish im dead.
y is there no one that ever cared abt me?
where is my place in ur heart?
im wondering.
juz waiting in vain i feel.

missing u

"Darling.. Listen to me.. The longer the wait.. The stronger our hearts will bond together.. We must be patient n cherish this relationship ok.. "

thats wad u told me. does it really work this way?
i feel so hurt, so sad. deep down inside im juz crying everyday n night, praying that u're by my side. it really hurts so bad. pls come back to me soon.
im waiting here for one day u tell me u can meet me, spend time with me.
i dun like to be dissapointed. last week u told me 19th & 20th. but none was fulfilled.
can u hear the cries in my heart?

our life together as one

*pic of me at weizhang's bbq. thats his dog mobey. really cute.

its u i love now. no more turning back.
i've let go of my past n look to our future.
i'll find a place to have our lil lifes together once again.
i love u hubby. =)
i hope u loved me juz as much.
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to you,

loving is never easy.
the day u told me u will give up is the day i hated u.
i hate u n i hate her juz as much.
i wish u luck with lil gal.
u told me to nt look back.
i dun wish to anymore.
u've hurt me juz as bad. its fair n square.
let me know when u have told ur family we're over.
i'll do it after.

zouk love

it was a sad week thus i decided to club my ass off...sadly, i gt addicted.
lol. went to zouk for a gd 3 days in a week. am i mad or wad.
but nonetheless, it was great to be there...totally FUN!
now i lost so much slp my dark eye rings are all out. hahaha...
pics are up! so click here to view!
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MAMBO TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
call me, call me...
baby would u call me NOW....

thank you for the gift

i like this blue dress. cant really decide if i should buy it...
suggestions anyone? it cost $23 including the postage.
the dress is sweet right? bleah...tell me wad u think of it!!!!!
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heres a nice song lyrics to end of this entry.
with love,
lil gal.

Title: The Gift

Artist: Collin Raye
(jim brickman)

Winter snow is falling down
Children laughing all around
Lights are turning on like a fairy tale come true
Sittin’ by the fire we made
You’re the answer when I prayed
I would find someone and baby I found you

And all I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more everyday
You saved my heart from being broken apart
You gave your love away
And I’m thankful everyday
For the gift

Watching as you softly sleep
What I’d give if I could keep
Just this moment if only time stood still
But the colors fade away
And the years will make us gray
But baby in my eyes you’ll still be beautiful

And all I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more everyday
You saved my heart from being broken apart
You gave your love away
And I’m thankful everyday
For the gift

All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more everyday
You saved my heart from being broken apart
You gave your love away
And I’m thankful everyday
Can’t find the words to say
Thank you for the gift

that pleasant day with u

love is in ur hands.
my darling's been really busy. sadly.
yday was our MS Coslab Semi Finals at M hotel.
was nice but it can be real boring...
i must say it was a great day for me at least.
i was late for work...DUH night before worked till 130am...i almost died.
so ya...i went M hotel straight...reached at 1.
went cafe for a drink with jasson n met the judges (actors & actresses)
it was pretty cool.
after the whole event which ended at 6.
decided to spend some precious time with my hubby.
so i went ikea tamp with him. did furniture shopping.
his whole freaking car was loaded with furniture. haha...funny.
after tt we went over to giant to buy more stuffs. n he met ernie there.
din expect him to tell ernie i was with him...but im glad he said. =)
loaded the car with more things n he send me to elaine's place which i was super late
for deb's party n he went home.

left elaine's at 11plus n i headed clarke quay for tea alone while waitin for cayman to pick me up.
i sat there at coffee club alone for a gd hour.
suddenly the waiter came with a new pot of tea. the shocked me told him i din order.
so apparently, this guy from 4 tables away bought for me.
nv in my life such things happened. but thanks anyway.
so i decided to leave after i finished my drink.
asked for bill, to my surprise both pots were paid.

my night ended with a pleasant night view at mt faber. =)
wad a pleasant day.
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perhaps that lil gal is juz wad u need.
a childish gal to ease the kid in u.
i guess i cant tell u to grow up no more.
but get a life & know wad u wanna do.
she will grow up one day...
n when that day comes i pray hard for u she can stand the u that duno wad u wan in life.

im suicidal

suicidal tots fills my mind. i wish i was dead.
self inflicted pain sumtimes does release the pain inside.
-the cuts dun hurt.
-panadols are for pain relive. pop as much as u can n u die.
i cant help but wish im dead.

remember to forget

sumtimes u look back and wish u could be the same.
things have changed. everyone else moved on.
u stayed at the same position.
u stood there wondering where to go.
confused n lost.
help came back. u tot thats the man...
well...are u sure? could he juz be the evil one tryin to cause u more harm than u already have?
sumtimes u juz have to be alone to truly analyse the whole situation.
life aint an easy path. neither is love.
everyday, sumone is bound to be hurt.
hurt by words, by actions, by things. by oneself.

new word in dictionary

NEGLECTED is the damn word i need to put in my life dictionary now.
i always come last or should i even say never in the picture.
wadeva.
one day i die n he probably wun noe wad happened to me.

tears

the lil gal just needs her bf ard.
she misses him bad.
she feels neglected.
bf's busy with work n family.
just too busy.

lil gal's sad n cries herself to slp everyday.

i longed for that love.

photos from weddings

i've uploaded the pics from tiangping's n shijie's wedding!
click on the above pics to view!

n yes. im stil in the shitty mood. very shitty.

im downright shitty

im reallllly down.
sth cheered me up a lil. thanks to andrew.
it did came at the right time.
i would have think its lame if its the wrong time.
but thanks.

all thanks to u. im all down now. whole mind is work work work.
i think im goin to lose slp again.

i need to scream.

honestly, i've kinda reach my boilling point.
no reply to questions i ask nvm.
last min when i reach u tell me u gt to meet the fucking boss.
like AGAIN! bloody shit. y cant u tell me earlier?
n u stil dare to tell me to either go eat with others or stay in office.
fuck u. if i wanna eat with others y the fuck i make my way back for?
n if i wanna stay in office i might as well come back n work the whole fucking day instead!!!!!!
i fucking hate it. y am i so dumb. y do i tok to u nicely after being so fucking pissed!?
WHY? WHY WHY? i really feel like an idiot.
so much that i wanna cry...but y cant i? i fucking hate it.

frustrated

i feel like a fucking replacement of your boss.
when hes nt free, i take over his place to acc u.
y is it u can make time to have breakfast or coffee with that boss of urs but nt me?
u so dun mind drinking with him till weeeee hours. wad abt me?
stay home n wait for u to come home.
fuck! sumtimes i juz duno wad u take me as anymore.
yeah sure u love me...when u need my help or be your maid la! fucking shit.
im tired n drained. i've gt my temper tooo!
i hate u sumtimes.
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you lied to me again.

Over Lyrics
Artist:Lindsay Lohan

I watch the walls around me crumble
but it's not like I wont build them up again
so here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts cause it will end

(bridge)
And my tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Chorus:
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't wanna be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you
but at the same time you're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
and the more I try to feel the less I'm whole

(bridge)
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Chorus:
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go
Yeah, I'll be the first to go
Don't wanna be the last to know

Over... Over... Over...
(bridge)
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Chorus:
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
tell me that it's over
tell me that it's over
over

Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me

Don't tell me that it's over
Don't tell me that it's over

changes to be made again

its sad. when i thought things could remain the way it was,
i was forced to make changes to my lifestyle again.
end of this month marks the end of our lil lives after work.
its sad its sad. its back to slping alone, living in my lil room,
back to my toys to acc me. im going to miss our lil lives.
i wish we could have a home together n live together. sigh.

in love....

being in love is...
an indescribable joy.
a sweet pleasant embrace.
feeling nice to see him come home despite the fact you're home alone for a good 4 hrs.
to have him to wake up to instead of your soft toys.
to have him to hug you to bed.
to have him to tug you back to bed after a bad nightmare.
to have him to listen to your problems.
to have him take care of you when you're too ill to even get out of bed.
to make morning coffee for him.
to have him to laugh at my clumsiness but makes sure i'm ok after.

we share the ups & downs together.
stood by each other thru tough times.
im glad i have you.
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i finally posted my birthday pictures from dungeon.
check them out!
*click pic below.

believing in u

"i wan a hug"
"no. later"
telling myself to not get affected.
im trying.

hearing too much & knowing too much is juz not doin me any good.
i duno wad to do.
i need to trust.
but how?
everything seems so true.
everything she said seems to have had happened to me.
were they really together before?
is he lying to me?

i dun wanna noe so much.
i wish i din noe.
i wish i could stil believe in him like i did.
god help me.
i need to believe.
i need to noe im loved.
am i?
or am i juz another gal that walked into ur life?

im juz a hurt gal sitting in the corner of my own.
drowning in my own sorrow.
drowning in vomit & smoke.
drowning in pills to keep myself alive.
i feel so dead inside me.
i slp in flood of tears, wake up to a pool of tears.
wad should i do now?
did i make a big mistake?
who should i believe in?

blabbering!

i am addicted to miami ink. all thanks to the old man.
tattoo is addictive i heard.
haha...its ART!
i seriously duno wad the hell im toking about. haha.
anyway, im blogging for the sake of blogging.
i DUNO WAD TO SAY!
so many things have happened.
in the office, to ppl close to me, to me.
too much to say n i dun wish to say either.

a pic from my bday at dungeon.
thanks everyone for being there!
except old man. but i had old man alone to celebrate with me. =)
ice cream. i'll never forget the lovely bday u gave me.

quizzes

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. A break-up usually comes as a shock to you. You always think things are going well.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen Or lend a shoulder to cry on You're there through thick and thin Many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

tiger cub cub

A Special World by - Sheelagh Lennon -

A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.
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found this sumwhere n tot its really nice.
in the mood for sum love poems.

im thinking of getting a tattoo.
something i wanted very long ago.
found a nice cute tiger cub. im now in a dillemia.
definitely, family will kill me if they noe i gt a tattoo.
but i would love to have it...how? sigh.
should i juz go ahead with having one?

music to my ears

Artist: Oliver James
Song: Greatest Story Ever Told


Thank you for this moment
I've gotta say how beautiful you are
Of all the hopes and dreams I could have prayed for
Here you are
If I could have one dance forever
I would take you by the hand
Tonight it's you and I together
I'm so glad I'm your man
And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
that day
but if destiny decided I should look the other way
then the world would never know
the greatest story ever told
and did I tell you that I love you
tonight
I don't hear the music
When I'm looking in your eyes
But I feel the rhythm of your body
Close to mine
It's the way we touch, it soothes me
It's the way we'll always be
your kiss your pretty smile
you know i'd die for
oh baby
you're all i need
And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
that day
but if destiny decided I should look the other way
then the world would never know
the greatest story ever told
and did I tell you that I love you
just how much i really need you
did I tell you that I love you
tonight
tonight
And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
that day
but if destiny decided I should look the other way
then the world would never know
the greatest story ever told
and did I tell you that I love you
just how much I really need you
did I tell you that I love you tonight

bleeding

the blood flows like theres no tomorrow.
tell me what to do now.

totally fallen.

im down DOWN DOWN!!!!!!!!!
terribly in pain.
i've gt torsilitis.

this is wad i can find to describe what is happening in my throat.
In some patients, chronic tonsil infections and enlarged tonsils can lead to a condition called chronic cryptic tonsillitis. The tonsils contain many small pockets and infoldings called crypts, which can trap small food particles and other debris. This can produce small, white stone-like particles called tonsilliths, composed of bacteria and dead cells, which are foul-smelling, can prolong the infection, and may cause a mild, intermittent sore throat.

im in intense pain. i cant really tok.
i cant drink. i cant eat.

for the past two days, it gt me into a high fever which came only when im slping.
i will wake up in the middle of the night shivering coz im burning hot.
it subsides but will come back suddenly without a warning.
stupid fever. sumtimes i feel as though im goin to die.
whole body is burning hot. takes more than an hour of constant cold toweling before it
slightly subside.

pls juz let me get well asap. pls.
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thank you love for letting me noe i meant alot to u.
truly im touched by the care & concern i've gotten the past few days.
thank you for staying up & making sure my fever subsides.
thank you for rushing home to buy food & cool my fever down with freezing cold towels. =)

only when u're down, do u noe who truly cares.
those who cares are definitely NOT my parents.
I HATE HOME. i wish i never have to go back to a place i call 'prison'.

karen my dearest cousin.

it seriously sucks to see ppl close to me leave.
karen juz left to NZ for a month to find a job.
coming back but to apply visa to stay there.
shes migrating. y? i will miss my cousin so badly.
y are ppl that are closest to me leaving me here?
who am i to turn to now? who noes me n my family more than she does?
no one. she gives me the best advice i could ever get.
i love her.

jie, pls come back soon.

in the morning

Gwen Stefani Lyrics

this entry has no title

i'm hungry n grumpy now.

lets see how much u noe moi. =)

Create your own Friend Test here

wad importance?

the feeling of unimportance.
tts wad i felt.
im drained.
i really am.

just went to collect my cert today.
met up with shan shan n weili. nice seeing them
n i went for a coffee session at starbucks with teng hong.
was nice catching up with gd o' familiar ppl.
being back in sch was like all the precious lovely n sad memories
dashing back. felt really old coz i was in work wear.

its a bad day. -full stop-

the world is innocent

leave the world alone. they did u no wrong.
blame me if u want.
me!

hurt

i duno y my eyes swell up with tears.
i duno y i feel so hurt.
maybe im nt gd enough for u.
maybe.

gdbye world.
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Lily: You are nurturing, you were meant to be a mother. In fact, people are drawn to you; a few words from you, and they instantly feel worlds better. No Wonder people say you would make a great therapist! But don't feel like you have to ease everyone's troubles: your caring alone does more than you know.
Lily, White : Virginity; Purity; Majesty; It's Heavenly to Be with You
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is it?

P-A-R-T-Y

i need to PARTYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!
darling, pls bring me...
drag me out from work n bring me to a club nearby to dance my blues away.

stomach is killing me!

sick sick sick...
i've been sooooooo sick.
down with gastric for many days...
stomach's been giving me lots of problems.
stomach full of wind...sigh.

tim send me to raffles hosp to see the doc this afternoon.
down with gastric and urinal inflammation.
doc fee....$60.90. never seen a doc so expensive before.
:( had a bad bad bad craving for cream puffs.
lol. n i guess he told someone abt it when we gt back to the office.
tat person told him to buy for me...haha...im a lucky gal.
yummy macs n cream puffs for dinner. =)

im stil at work now. waiting for everyone to leave.
then all of us are heading to le bar just opp my office coz
its an agent's bday n we were invited to be there.

lalalala

whee! i finally am going to have a namecard.
hahaha...like after so long...n im having the one i designed for all the directors!
shiok. haha...

theres alot to be done. headache!
i need retail therapy.
any sponsors out there?
sigh. BROKE.
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m&m dark chocolates with milk................! yum!

edited...
y am i feeling so down again?
i hate it when i feel this way.
when my eyes seems heavy with tears n i duno y.

i love...

love love love....
complicated sweet love.
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a night so dull, a night so dark. you made me sad but made me smile again.

the lonely wandering soul

young & alone
i need you by my side
i need you to assure me im nt juz there for nothing
i need to be loved

i feel so alone sumtimes.
feel like im always out there in the ocean trying to survive in deep blue sea
i duno where to go from here
i need a guide.
draw a line for me to follow.

pls...i need u tooo.
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i aint important to no one. just a lonely wandering soul finding a place to stay

picture post

sometimes....love just aint enough

Singer : Sun Yan Zi
Song Title : Sometimes Love Just Aint Enough

i don't wanna lose you,
i don't wanna use you
just to have somebody by my side.
i don't wanna hate you,
i don't wanna take you,
i don't wanna be the one to cry~
that don't really matter
to anyone anymore.
like a fool i keep losing my place
i keep seeing you walk through that door.

***but there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know
it's your heart you can't trust.
there's a reason why people
don't stay where they are.
baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

i could never change you,
i don't wanna blame you.
baby, you don't have to take the fall.
yes, i may have hurt you,
i did not desert you.
maybe i just wanna have it all.
it makes a sound like thunder,
it makes me feel like rain.
like a fool who will never see truth,
i keep thinking something's gonna change.

Repeat ***

and there's no way home,
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
are there things that you wanted to say?
do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where i used to lay?

and there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
there's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
baby, sometimes, love...
just ain't enough.
oh...

a love aint that simple

when the moon is out,
i wish the sun comes out sooner.
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once i told myself,
i need a man.
twice i told myself,
i need a man.
thrice i told myself again,
i need a man.

a man to take care of me.
a man to care for me like no one else could.
a man i love.
a man who understands.
a man who loves me.

i need a man mature enough to be my angel.
i need to know im secured.
i need to know i can depend on him for the rest of my life.
i need to know hes the one for me.
the one n only love i can have for the rest of my life.

no one can replace u in my heart i promise.
words, they are never enough to express.
its the actions i see that matters most.
...love...just love...
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life aint that easy n simple.
theres our future i need to see.
imagine me without u, i would be so lost, confused n afraid.

its juz impossible. i'll never leave u coz i need u.

my lil story

had my off day today.
a time needed for myself to be alone. be taking a break from my hectic
worklife. went to elaine's place to play with the kids n have a gd rest.
to do things i haven done for so long. like watch tv (which i fell aslp
watching) lol. after that, at night went to junction 8 with elaine.
she went to cut her hair while i went shopping.
this dress is pretty. too bad i need to learn not to go on retail therapy.
after she left to run her errands, i went to city hall to meet eleanor for
a coffee session. its nice to know sumone can understand wad im goin
thru. thanks gal.

photo of me n jerome, my bro. hes the fitness consultant in my company.
an ah beng with a kind heart. im really a pampered one in the office.
by everyone. hahaha. free mags frm jasson, free treats n free medicine n free
nutrients from everyone else. nt forgetting he who always help me behind the
scenes in many many ways. i hope soon things will be better.
i hope. been really emo these few days. i need to pull my inner self back together.
i need peace n i need a life of my own. pls. juz leave me alone. if its
a doom im goin into, just let me get into it. im tired of hearing im tired of
all problems. i juz need to be alone after work. no nags nothing. PEACE.
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im too frail. i need u by my side.

nice songs =)

tired

im a sick bird now.
throat hurts.
stomach hurts.
i feel like vomitting.
i really duno wads wrong with me.
everyone's getting sick in the office.
the virus seems to travel around.
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i duno y im feeling this way.
im sorry.

life is like a boat

Life is Like a Boat
Rie Fu, Like is Like a Boat

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who’s gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can’t escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

tooku de iki o shiteru　toomei ni natta mitai

kurayami ni omoe dakedo　mekaku shisareteta dake

inori o sasagete　atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi　sono hate made

(I’m breathing in a faraway place, it seems like I’ve become transparent
And though I think I’m in the dark, I’ve only been blindfolded

Offering a prayer, I wait for a new day to come
Until the morning stops glittering on the sea)

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don’t give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

hito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku　nukedashitaku naru
tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki de　fune o tsureteku

(People’s hearts shift and change, wanting to slip out
The moon still keeps bringing in the boat with each new phase)

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I’d feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku　odayakana hi mo
tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki de　fune o terashidasu


inori o sasagete　atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi　sono hate made

(The journey still continues, even on calm days
The moon still starts shining down on the boat with each new phase

Offering a prayer, I wait for a new day to come
Until the morning stops glittering on the sea)

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

unmei no fune o kogi　nami wa tsugi kara tsugi e to watashi-tachi o shou kedo [1]
sore mo suteki na tabi ne　dore mo suteki na tabi ne

(We are all rowing the boat of fate, the waves keep on coming and we can’t escape [1]
That too is a beautiful journey, isn’t it? Any of them is a beautiful journey, isn’t it)

i love work.

everyone's sick. i wish i could get sick.
after the hectic days, im tired!
i gt no more ideas. im drained.
im out of creative juice.

office today was quiet. so quiet.
i miss the people coming to my table.

jasson saw me lying on the table n he tot i cried.
lol im juz slping. n he told me to slp for half an hr.
nice n lovely boss. who disturb me by taking away
the seaweed frm my hand n later feed me. haha.
everyone goes crazy after work. at work. its all about juz work.

get well soon my dears. =)
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happy belated bday dumb dumb.
hope u like the mms i sent u. hehe...
present will come soon oki? love ya!
ur days will definitely be beautiful.
hehe. enjoy! meet up next week to really celebrate with u k?
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sheryl dear.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
OLD LE! 21 liao!
DIE! hahah...
sorry i missed ur party.
boss had to leave for an appt so i gt to stay back to do his job
for the training that night. will make it up to u.
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JEROME!
my bro, my kaki, my 'bf'.
hahha...happy bday tooo!
too bad u nv get drunk on ur bday.
too many things happened. oh well. sigh.
hope u stil had fun.
=)

love hurts

Incubus Love Hurts Lyrics

Tonight we drink to youth
And holding fast the truth
Don't want to lose what I had as a boy
My heart still has a beat
But love is now a feat
As common as a cold day in L.A.

Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
'cause without love I won't survive

I'm fettered and abused
Stand naked and accused
Should I surface, this one-man submarine?
I only want the truth!
So tonight we drink to youth!
I'll never lose what I had as a boy

Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder

Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
'cause without love I won't survive

Without love I won't survive

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
'cause without love I won't survive

Love hurts, ohhh-oh ohh
Love hurts
Without love I won't survive
Love hurts la-la-la-la-la-la oh
Love hurts
Without love I won't survive
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i juz wanna be left alone.
all alone.
im nothing but a fool.

a series of unfortunate events

i've gt butterfeet.
a series of unfortunate events had happened to me since the past 3 days.

first (24apr),
i fell down flat on my face while running up the stairs at my office.
embrassing. luckily, only ONE beautician saw.

second (25apr),
the floor at bugis food court was TOOO slippery coz they were mopping the floor.
i was walking SOOOOOOO carefully but still, i slipped n fell.

third (26apr),
while turning away frm jasson's office, i knocked my face.
can see him wanting to laugh but stil ask me how i am. hahaha.
when i was out with maynard today, i almost fell AGAIN.
i swear maynard wanted to laugh at me. but they are really nice guys..
they make sure im oki. haha. so i think maynard n jasson are so goin
to disturb me about being EXTRA careful n dun fall down again.
bleah.

i think im gettin dumber.

beauty lies frm within you.

pic was taken quite sum time ago. stated 12th april.
shows how long i haven been bloggin.
finally gt sum mood to get my ass to blog.
life has been hectic. the past weeks have been spent
rushing artworks n make preparations for the kovan
roadshow. im glad it was a great success. sales was
great. but im nt satisfied. to me, it wasnt as organised.
was so stressed about it i couldnt slp.
need so badly to know how it went.
im glad jasson n maynard were nice enough to tell me
it went really well n told me i did a great job.
my first time taking up such a task, the next one i'll do a
better job! no more cock ups. esp frm.....sumone.

ppl here are really nice. i love them all.
tiring work but stil u love wad u do. =)
juz gt another last min work yday night.
ugly flyer i produced in ten mins. which of coz. mr lim said "FAIL".
yes i noe. it was so rush i really couldnt come up with sth really
superb lo.

enough about work. dear is goin away to aussie tonight.
bah. it will be a long one. 2 weeks plus. stupid. hate army.
i guess its juz gd that im no longer throwing my temper n cry
everynight when my bf goes overseas.
he stayed over last night. n many nights before. hahaha...

let me share a few NICE songs from 200 pounds beauty with u.
its a super nice show. MUST WATCH!

click here for OST

totally drained

im tired of the endless late nights.
im drained from the last min works.
i needed rest yet theres none to be found.

honestly i duno wad to blog about.
jus a picture post perhaps


i feel the need to dance my stress away. *nonsense*
*click here

for more pics from this album *click here

first time in my life

im blogging now coz i need to stay awake.
im bored coz i duno wad to draw already.
baby's beside me now doin the website.
im taken aback by mummy coz she allowed him to
stay in my hse to do work. we wanted to stay up at macs near
my place. its gd to be at home. coz i gt my com n its more comfortable.
first time my bf actually came over my place n overnight in a way.
though we both arent suppose to slp haha..

redbulls are in my fridge now. for us to stay awaken they are sponsored by kevin! hahaha...
i've gt lots of things in my hands now. 3 posters, testimonies, and voucher...
of coz the most important is to get my website done up.
everything is URGENT! all has like someone's head on the table n if i dun get it done their
heads will be chopped. its as though their fate lies in how fast i am.
im tryin my best. n i guess so far i've yet to dissapoint them. esp my ceo.
haha. think my brains can run as fast as him. trained by him i guess.

i shall get back to the bed n draw. laters.

thank you apple. u brighten up my days in the office!
love u la... =)
*click here for pics taken on sat in the office with my colleagues.

the ppl that make me smile each day

tmr we're goin to have another event.
Ms Coslab 2007 and Leaders recognition Nite.
all are welcome to join us.

its goin to be another weekend burnt. sigh.
but i guess its goin to be fun.
im in charge of slides this time.
sumhow i think its more stressful. hahaa
can u imagine if i flash the wrong one at the wrong time!
OOPS! haha...*touchwood. i dun wan that to happen.
work's been a joy n i think everyone in the office plays
a part in making this place a nice place to work in.
i dun usually see my bosses around.
other than the CEO whos super funny n likes to come to my table
n disturb me.
ppl im always with is huiping. n i see ard are vince, lionel, jerome.
they r great ppl n super happening. though vince, lionel are MARRIED!
trust me they behave like lil boys. hahahahaha...
*click here for pics from 5elements product launch.

tts all folks. i should be doin work now...
goin to have rehearsal later this afternoon.