remember to forget

sumtimes u look back and wish u could be the same.
things have changed. everyone else moved on.
u stayed at the same position.
u stood there wondering where to go.
confused n lost.
help came back. u tot thats the man...
well...are u sure? could he juz be the evil one tryin to cause u more harm than u already have?
sumtimes u juz have to be alone to truly analyse the whole situation.
life aint an easy path. neither is love.
everyday, sumone is bound to be hurt.
hurt by words, by actions, by things. by oneself.

new word in dictionary

NEGLECTED is the damn word i need to put in my life dictionary now.
i always come last or should i even say never in the picture.
wadeva.
one day i die n he probably wun noe wad happened to me.

tears

the lil gal just needs her bf ard.
she misses him bad.
she feels neglected.
bf's busy with work n family.
just too busy.

lil gal's sad n cries herself to slp everyday.

i longed for that love.

photos from weddings

i've uploaded the pics from tiangping's n shijie's wedding!
click on the above pics to view!

n yes. im stil in the shitty mood. very shitty.

im downright shitty

im reallllly down.
sth cheered me up a lil. thanks to andrew.
it did came at the right time.
i would have think its lame if its the wrong time.
but thanks.

all thanks to u. im all down now. whole mind is work work work.
i think im goin to lose slp again.

i need to scream.

honestly, i've kinda reach my boilling point.
no reply to questions i ask nvm.
last min when i reach u tell me u gt to meet the fucking boss.
like AGAIN! bloody shit. y cant u tell me earlier?
n u stil dare to tell me to either go eat with others or stay in office.
fuck u. if i wanna eat with others y the fuck i make my way back for?
n if i wanna stay in office i might as well come back n work the whole fucking day instead!!!!!!
i fucking hate it. y am i so dumb. y do i tok to u nicely after being so fucking pissed!?
WHY? WHY WHY? i really feel like an idiot.
so much that i wanna cry...but y cant i? i fucking hate it.

frustrated

i feel like a fucking replacement of your boss.
when hes nt free, i take over his place to acc u.
y is it u can make time to have breakfast or coffee with that boss of urs but nt me?
u so dun mind drinking with him till weeeee hours. wad abt me?
stay home n wait for u to come home.
fuck! sumtimes i juz duno wad u take me as anymore.
yeah sure u love me...when u need my help or be your maid la! fucking shit.
im tired n drained. i've gt my temper tooo!
i hate u sumtimes.
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you lied to me again.

Over Lyrics
Artist:Lindsay Lohan

I watch the walls around me crumble
but it's not like I wont build them up again
so here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts cause it will end

(bridge)
And my tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Chorus:
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't wanna be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you
but at the same time you're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
and the more I try to feel the less I'm whole

(bridge)
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Chorus:
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go
Yeah, I'll be the first to go
Don't wanna be the last to know

Over... Over... Over...
(bridge)
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Chorus:
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
tell me that it's over
tell me that it's over
over

Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me

Don't tell me that it's over
Don't tell me that it's over

changes to be made again

its sad. when i thought things could remain the way it was,
i was forced to make changes to my lifestyle again.
end of this month marks the end of our lil lives after work.
its sad its sad. its back to slping alone, living in my lil room,
back to my toys to acc me. im going to miss our lil lives.
i wish we could have a home together n live together. sigh.

in love....

being in love is...
an indescribable joy.
a sweet pleasant embrace.
feeling nice to see him come home despite the fact you're home alone for a good 4 hrs.
to have him to wake up to instead of your soft toys.
to have him to hug you to bed.
to have him to tug you back to bed after a bad nightmare.
to have him to listen to your problems.
to have him take care of you when you're too ill to even get out of bed.
to make morning coffee for him.
to have him to laugh at my clumsiness but makes sure i'm ok after.

we share the ups & downs together.
stood by each other thru tough times.
im glad i have you.
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i finally posted my birthday pictures from dungeon.
check them out!
*click pic below.

believing in u

"i wan a hug"
"no. later"
telling myself to not get affected.
im trying.

hearing too much & knowing too much is juz not doin me any good.
i duno wad to do.
i need to trust.
but how?
everything seems so true.
everything she said seems to have had happened to me.
were they really together before?
is he lying to me?

i dun wanna noe so much.
i wish i din noe.
i wish i could stil believe in him like i did.
god help me.
i need to believe.
i need to noe im loved.
am i?
or am i juz another gal that walked into ur life?

im juz a hurt gal sitting in the corner of my own.
drowning in my own sorrow.
drowning in vomit & smoke.
drowning in pills to keep myself alive.
i feel so dead inside me.
i slp in flood of tears, wake up to a pool of tears.
wad should i do now?
did i make a big mistake?
who should i believe in?

blabbering!

i am addicted to miami ink. all thanks to the old man.
tattoo is addictive i heard.
haha...its ART!
i seriously duno wad the hell im toking about. haha.
anyway, im blogging for the sake of blogging.
i DUNO WAD TO SAY!
so many things have happened.
in the office, to ppl close to me, to me.
too much to say n i dun wish to say either.

a pic from my bday at dungeon.
thanks everyone for being there!
except old man. but i had old man alone to celebrate with me. =)
ice cream. i'll never forget the lovely bday u gave me.

quizzes

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. A break-up usually comes as a shock to you. You always think things are going well.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen Or lend a shoulder to cry on You're there through thick and thin Many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?