tears that brings things back.

im feel down.

the torture.
the memories.
the pain.

wads wrong?
ask too much.
expect too much.
i duno.

if things were so simple.
if things wun hurt.
think more.

crying my hearts out.
my own fault?
mayb.

cry more.
may it all be washed away.
at least i hope.
dream on.

my brain

Your Brain is 80.00% Female, 20.00% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

good news! good news!

i have lotsa good news today!!
really very happy today.

1st: i gt my company for my sip already.
im goin to inspire publishing.
so happy coz its only my first interview.
n i gt the job. quite like the company.
ppl r really friendly.

2nd: cal gt a job too. workin with the company
he is doin his proj for. but this time he get paid.

at least he wun be bored when im workin this hols.

3rd: he gt nominated for distinction for his FYP!
but gonna go thru interview by director.
to show him y u should get it.

i think dear can do it. n show the director that he
hav the potential of distinction.

ok. enough of good news.
i say a bad news.
i have lotsa work to do!!
-pixel extended by a week..
-arts presenting next next week.
-packaging due next week.
-website due next week too!
-advertising extended.
-layout next next week.

argh so many things. so little time!

a beautiful song.

http://www.flashpub.net/flash/3999.htm

this link is a flash of a beautiful song.
abt a couple.

the guy says...

i wish to be the angel of the fairy tale u love,
to open my arms that becomes wings to protect u.
even though u dun believe in the fairy tale n thinks
that i cant be ur prince.
i wish to tell u from the day u say u love me,
the stars in my sky r all shining brightly.
u hav to believe that we can be like the fairytale.
together we write our story.
blissful n happiness is the ending.

the time has come.

tmr's my interview. goin to inspire publishing.
quite scared. duno wad to expect. hope its informal.
they dun make me feel pressured. im afraid.
aniwa here's their website. can take a look.

http://www.inspire-publishing.com/index.htm

look on the bright side

today had no prac. i din noe til when i asked lynn in the
mornin. i asked y no chord charts this week.
n theres actually no prac.

so plan's gone. din go out today with dear.
anyway, since tmr hav no youth n im
nt goin for the church's anniversary lunch.
im goin out. hahas. too bad.
im goin out the whole day!
hee. mayb watch a show.
muz get a ring. hee. n i haven brought
baby his vday present. oops.
hee. sorry.

today i juz stoned at aunt's place while mummy
clean up the whole place.
den karen n qien came.
had dinner there. den came hme n watched tv.
boring day.

juz gt a nt very nice comment frm my dad
abt my portfolio juz now. stil quite upset abt it.
he said its childish.
i dun think so. wads wrong with wrapping my
portfolio with cloth? its the theme of my whole portfolio
on the whole. but im stil upset abt it.
when can i ever get a nice comment frm them.
well, at least mummy said sum nice sum nt.
but wadeva. they juz love to make me feel
unconfident in all the things i do.
even if i get an A. i nv get compliment.

wad a life.

days of my life.

life is hectic.
filled with unexpected surprises.
filled with stress.

may dreams be like waters in the river,
flowin into the sea.
may all ppl be happy
AND
life be beautiful bed of roses.
filled with enjoyment n fun.

i wish i wish ......

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

i totally forgot it was our anniversary today.
so did he. so nvm. haha.
tmr den we shall celebrate.
only after church prac.
pon sch today again. sigh.
faked an mc.
actually nt really la. hahas.
at least i really had uncomfortable throat.
hee. so i din lie.

i hav finally printed my portfolio.
its pretty. juz wad i wish it wil be.
hee. juz gt a little problem now that i hav
to find a way to solve.

dear's left eye gt infection yday.
hope he wil get better soon.
at least he could open his eyes finally after
the whole afternoon.
i practically stoned at his place while he slp n slp.
other den wakin up to follow me to
polyclinic, lunch and goin print my stuffs.
he is slpin.

im pretty tired after the whole day.
tired yet juz cant slp.
gonna go. mayb to slp or wad.
i duno. we'll see.
hehs. taas. =)

valentines.....

first of all, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL!!!
couples and singles. :)

to me its juz another day. haha. nothing special.
dear told me valentine's day is actually created
by a card company. so they can sell more cards.
hmmm. haha. curious to noe if its really true.
but i wonder y is there such a day as valentine's
day. if u wanna show care n love. everyday oso
can show rite? its a matter of whether u wan or
nt wad. haha.

my day...went dear's house in the mornin. din go
to class. heee..muz make use of my mc wad.
moreover, im really tired. juz slp n slp at his place.
woke up we cooked steamed egg. made jelly.
and made soup. tts our lunch. we finally made the
perfect steamed egg. tt taste soft n silky juz like
the chawamushi. heh. tried many times to get it
right n finally today we did it!! enjoy my lunch.
went for my medical appt. yeah! tmr i can stp
my medication already. n start drippin my
artificial tears ( which is eye drops ) haha.
im so sad. my degree went up for my left eye.
sobz. hope it wil be better n drop back.

as for how i celebrated this day. went to eat jap
food. heh. sushi n salmon sashimi. yummy!! hee.
gt a new pencil case. its bright pink n the word
'DUH!'. haha. cute. i love it. n its so cheap. only $5.90.
well walked ard century sq findin nice couple rings.
coz we thinkin of gettin a new pair. hee.

yup tts all abt today. nothin much. nt really a celebration
its juz another day. haha.

cny for mua..

cny is nt really over but the hols r over. suppose to go for class today i skipped both classes. but covered with mc. of coz real mc. gt it frm the doc who check my eye today. i hav 4 days mc. frm today til mon. haha. cool huh. but i dun really noe the seriousness of my eye til today when the doc really explained to me. stil patiently waitin for the results of the tests they do with the cells frm my eye. its stil pendin.

but aniwa my eye has to get better. if nt they r doin sth to me. like eg. using a needle to remove the thing again. but i hope nt. its scary. at least the doc says its gettin better. now she only lessen the no of times to take my medi. she said the medi will sting the eye when taken very long. which i can sum how feel wad she meant now. its gettin more n more uncomfortable when i drip. could be painful sumtimes too. i duno y my eye is damn itchy now. but i cant rub. so its really very irritating. all i could do was to blink n blink.

today woke up late. decided nt to go class last min. went to sch hand in my mc for tues. den went buy mac to eat. went his place. his mum say wanna go tm or nt. so ok we went together with the bro. bought groceries n went back in a cab. they went back den we cont to take the same cab to the hosp for my appt. was on time BUT the doc busy so ended up waitin for an hr. cant stand sittin there after 45 mins so we went to walk ard. ate alittle things den went back to cont waitin. after seein the doc went back his place. n juz stone. hahaha. had dinner at his hse. his cousins were there. ok i wil say the mum's side of the family were there. abit out of place at first. but slowly it was better. two cousins hav babies. one is so cute. 9 mths old. remind me of my bro when hes tt age. coz he always kick ya stomach n climb up. haha. tts wad the little gal did to me today. heavy little baby. haven felt tired after carryin babies for very long.

well i cant wake up this morn coz i came hme really late the nite before. gt back at 3+. marv n i were at ty's place. had alcoholic drinks (vodka). glad i nt drunk at all. but seein a few of them high is really funny. esp. dave n tp. tp was drunk but puke n was a little sober. haha. dave keep sayin hes juz entertainin us. but actually hes high already. sam was almost high too. but he noe how to control. haha. seein them drunk makes me laugh my heart out. their fights la. arguement la. but aniwa its my first time drinkin vodka. really nice. of coz they nv sabo me.

ok im done here i tink. im tired. ciaos.

eyes eyes eyes

wad a chinese new year openin i hav.
red eyes. wow. so lucky.
red u know. juz the perfect colour for chinese new year aint it?

argh argh argh. im bein freakin sarcastic here.
but yes i really do hav red swollen left eye.
cornea ulcer? wadeva it is.
on medi. had to be transfered frm private doc
to hosp's eye specialist. frm one clinic to another.
i duno how many doctors i hav seen juz today.
cost i gt no comments. gt nagged definitely.
shitty. but wadeva.
the stupid medi hurts when drop on the eye.
n i hav to bring ice bags to keep the eye drops cold all the time.
argh. can u imagine tt?

worse stil. i hav my monthly thing. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!
seriously wanna kill myself today.
though im glad thru out the whole time n everything i hav to go thru,
dardar was there with me.

cant imagine without him when the doc used a needle to
take cells out of my eye. so damn scary!!
i juz hope it be ok soon. n they nt goin to do anythin else
to me on fri on my appointment. sigh.

alright gd nite for now. nt goin church tmr.
im goin slp til later den go my granny's place.
hopin my eyes wil feel better.