learning to let go

there are times when u noe u have to let go of someone to find ur own happiness. it is tough. what would you do? it is over but u think, u worry, u miss that someone sometimes. it cant get out of ur head what is going on with that someone's life. u wanna noe it all. u hate urself for it but u cant help it. u feel like shit n u wish to tok to someone n that someone came into ur head but u cant pick up ur phone and call. im still learning...still learning to let go of someone.

baby tonight the sky got us falling in love again.

thank you for a wonderful night. a lovely dinner n a beautiful scenery where we chill n enjoy the breeze.
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my heart felt warm when u hug me from behind telling me u miss me.
i miss u too.

love the way you lie

Eminem feat. Rihanna

Love The Way You Lie

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that's alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that's alright

Because I love
The way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie



I can't tell you what it really is

I can only tell you what it feels like

And right now there's a steel knife

In my windpipe

I can't breathe

But I still fight

While I can fight

As long as the wrong feels right

It's like I'm in flight

High of a love

Drunk from the hate

It's like I'm huffing paint

And I love it the more that I suffer

I suffocate

And right before im about to drown

She resuscitates me

She fucking hates me

And I love it

Wait

Where you going

I'm leaving you

No you ain't

Come back

We're running right back

Here we go again

It's so insane

Cause when it's going good

It's going great

I'm Superman

With the wind in his bag

She's Lois Lane

But when it's bad

It's awful

I feel so ashamed

I snap

Who's that dude

I don't even know his name

I laid hands on her

I'll never stoop so low again

I guess I don't know my own strength



Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that's alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that's alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie



You ever love somebody so much

You can barely breathe

When you're with them

You meet

And neither one of you

Even know what hit 'em

Got that warm fuzzy feeling

Yeah them chills

Used to get 'em

Now you're getting fucking sick

Of looking at 'em

You swore you've never hit 'em

Never do nothing to hurt 'em

Now you're in each other's face

Spewing venom

And these words

When you spit 'em

You push

Pull each other's hair

Scratch, claw, bit 'em

Throw 'em down

Pin 'em

So lost in the moments

When you're in 'em

It's the rage that took over

It controls you both

So they say it's best

To go your separate ways

Guess that they don't know ya

Cause today

That was yesterday

Yesterday is over

It's a different day

Sound like broken records

Playin' over

But you promised her

Next time you'll show restraint

You don't get another chance

Life is no Nintendo game

But you lied again

Now you get to watch her leave

Out the window

Guess that's why they call it window pane



Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that's alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that's alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie



Now I know we said things

Did things

That we didn't mean

And we fall back
Into the same patterns

Same routine

But your temper's just as bad

As mine is

You're the same as me

But when it comes to love

You're just as blinded

Baby please come back

It wasn't you

Baby it was me

Maybe our relationship

Isn't as crazy as it seems

Maybe that's what happens

When a tornado meets a volcano

All I know is

I love you too much

To walk away though

Come inside

Pick up your bags off the sidewalk

Don't you hear sincerity

In my voice when I talk

Told you this is my fault

Look me in the eyeball

Next time I'm pissed

I'll aim my fist

At the dry wall

Next time

There will be no next time

I apologize

Even though I know it's lies

I'm tired of the games

I just want her back

I know I'm a liar

If she ever tries to fucking leave again

I'mma tie her to the bed

And set the house on fire


Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that's alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that's alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

random

i am tired.

missing u sometimes too.

Dear god.

Dear God
By Avenged Sevenfold

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
and all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
when hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

wads ur choice?

When we meet the right person to love when we're at the right place at the right time, that's chance.

When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance.

Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?

That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling. If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.

When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice.

Even if you know there are many people out there who are more
attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice.

Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance.
But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.

Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: "Fate brings you together, but it''s still up to you to make it happen."

I do believe that soul mates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not. We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mates is still a choice we have to make.
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i made my choice to be with u...wad abt u?

its nt the same without u

Vanilla Twilight lyrics
Songwriters: Young, Adam;

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here
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just how i feel about u.
i wish you were right next to me each day.
missing u dearly from the bottom of heart.

take me away

bliss...somehow i feel like this word always seems far from me. every relationship just has to fall apart no matter how hard i try, or how much efforts i put in. maybe i should just give up on relationship. maybe it is FATE that i dun deserve to be truly loved.

i am jaded. god take me away.

let it rest

it never felt so good when u let things rest. dun think abt it, dun let it bother u. have all the fun in the world u can have while u can. life should be happy. i think after telling myself that i should not think too much, i should not let others affect me. i realised that i am happy, so much happier. :) i miss my frens, i miss everyone else ard me. i love them all coz i noe they love me too. maybe, maybe one day i might just be able to do wad i always said i wish i could do. for now, i am happy with the way it is.

work has been so much better too. late nights and all but its the joy n satisfaction that motivates u. i love my job! though i still quietly hate some of my colleagues. some...hahaha...the carefree days seems to be back in my life! WOOOHOOO!

may JOY FILLS MY LIFE AND MY DEAREST FRENS TOO!~ i love u guys very much.

baby, baby, baby, noooo

Baby Lyrics

[Justin Bieber]
Oh woooah, oh woooooah, oh wooooah, oh.
You know you love me, I know you care,
just shout whenever and I’ll be there.
You are my love, you are my heart
and we will never ever ever be apart.
Are we an item? girl quit playing,
we’re just friends, what are you saying.
Said there’s another, look right in my eyes,
my first love broke my heart for the first time.
And I was like…

[Chorus]
Baby, baby, baby oooooh,
like baby, baby, baby noooooooo,
like baby, baby, baby, ooooh.
Thought you’d always be mine, mine (repeat)

[Justin Beiber]
Oh, for you I would have done whatever,
and I just can’t believe we aint together
and I wanna play it cool the thought of losing you
I buy you anything, I buy you any ring,
and now please say baby fix me and you shake me til’ you wake me from this bad dream.
I’m going down down down down
and I just can’t believe my first love won’t be around.
And I’m like…

[Chorus]

[Ludacris]
Luda, When I was 13 I had my first love,
there was nobody that compared to my baby
and nobody came between us, no-one could ever come above
She had me going crazy, oh I was star-struck,
she woke me up daily, don’t need no Starbucks.

She made my heart pound, I skip a beat when I see her in the street and
at school on the playground but I really wanna see her on the weekend.
She knows she got me dazing cause she was so amazing
and now my heart is breaking but I just keep on saying….

[Chorus]

Now I’m gone,
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
now I’m all gone.
Gone, gone, gone, gone, I’m gone.

i am an idiot

y do i even bother trying to work this r/s out with someone who doesnt want to?
y do i even bother caring for someone's feelings when he doesnt care abt mine?
y do i even bother trying to say anything when he thinks i have no rights to say?
y am i loving someone so much that i just wanna be with him and make this r/s last?
y am i so stupid? y cant i just let it go?
y cant i let go of someone that doesnt need me at all?

loving someone isnt it suppose to do things together n stay with each other thru everything?
y do i feel like im the only one who want this to last?
all he thinks is "wad ifs" that doesnt exist nw...then wad if u dun wanna try committing and u end up losing someone u love? it doesnt matter to you does it? work then gd lor if nt nvm lor. how do u even expect sth to work when u dun wish it does coz u dun wanna try to make it work.

y cant i just let it go? maybe i should try to fuck care too. maybe i can let out someday.
i feel like such a fool to believe in love. it doesnt exist does it?

i am an idiot!

goddess at home

yeah yeah u make it sound like you are so great.
yeah indeed i am thankful that when i gt no money i ask from u, u will give me.

BUT HAVE YOU TOT ABOUT HOW I FEEL TO GIVE AWAY HALF MY PAY SINCE I'VE STARTED WORKING TO THE HOUSE???????????? FUCK! STOP TOKING TO ME ABOUT MONEY UNLESS SOMEONE IN THIS HOUSE IS SHARING THAT WITH ME!!

FUCK YOU!

moreover, i return you the money i borrow once i get my pay....wtf are u grumbling so much abt!? i keep quiet coz i dun wanna argue with u anymore...its late, im fucking tired, i took medi! fuck! dun u fucking take it that im a DUMB! !@#%&!@#!^@%$#!@*##$^&&^

my lil getaway!

31st dec 2009: the last day of 2009, our countdown at phuket starts!!!

we're in the tuktuk to patong beach! im excited! hehe


party at patong beach! beautiful fireworks and great company! we head on to a pub and here comes osama! hahaha

dear carried me on his shoulders on our way back to hotel. it was super scary coz i was damn high up there. haha...cute right?

next day everyone was so tired we only went out late in the afternoon. haha...went to a factory outlet which dear n i cant find anything to buy. after tt we went to the market ard the beach where we bought quite alot...haha...seafood dinner after that.

suntan by the beach day after. osama spotted once again! haha

camwhore. :p

grp photo since its our last night there. after which we proceed back to the hotel where a few of us continue drinking and playing games. hilarious. LOL!

our last day...seem lost right? ya coz we cannot find alan's hotel!!!!!!!!!! and we were carrying our luggages...hot n tiring. but we stil went shopping after putting down our stuffs at alan's hotel. and our flight was delayed till 4am!!! i kinda enjoyed the delay though. hahahahhaa

goodbye phuket! i had a GREAT time!
next destination: Bintan (23-24jan)
muahahaa