peace

happy or not?
sad or not?
free or not?
miss it or not?
i duno how i should feel.
i duno who is to blame.

perhaps its true. its always the same.
take it or leave it. reality of this dumb world.
swallow it down with all the pride u have and get on.

its a new life i should have.
i hope i have the peace, lord.

he surprises me in his lil ways

everyone that i haven met for so long said i put on weight!
damnit. its time i lose sum kilos. BLEAH!
cannot take it.
hate to know that i've put on weight. and yet i noe it myself.
for once today, the seamstress say i lost weight! hahahaha.
maybe she sees me quite often. oh man. that would mean i was
even fatter nt long ago!?

feels like my insomnia is back again.
i nv seems to have enough slp.
wake up always feeling stil slpy.

today, baby surprised me AGAIN!
his usual way is to pop his head into the shop n say hi
when i tot he is stuck in camp. bleah. he really made my dull dull
work day feel so much better. i guess nights are the happiest time of
the whole day. haha...love u dear.

send me a get well card.

two weeks of holiday for cny.
BULLSHIT.

im so sick. i feel tired.
no matter how much i slpt.
it nv seems enough.
pls get well soon.
i need a break.

xing nian kuai le

sad. its the end of the public holidays. im back to work tmr.
very much draggin it.

cny is not over yet but this yr it has been boring. but of coz
mine cannot be compared to my duckie's. hes been complaining
about how bored he is everyday. and i finally had a day free enough
to go his place to acc him today. he cooked for me. a mushroomy meal,
with red wine and had chocolate fondue. yummy.

thurs was my last day at work. and my lil bro fell sick that
night. acc him n my mum to the 24 hrs clinic which refered him
to kk hosp. he was admitted for two days. he had fits
so needed further observation. hes more or less better now.
but mum n i hav both fallen sick. CNY and im SICK! lost my appetite
to eat alot of things. sigh. had sore throat at first but now its juz left with
stupid block nose cum running nose? i cannot breathe!

tts all for now. im feeling terrible. gdnite.

ths night he was admitted. he showing me his 'ranger' tag.

the next morning. he look perfectly fine right?
doesnt look sick at all. to think that he had asthma attack
that morning.

i think i look more sick than him. maybe i should be the one admitted.
haha.

love works in mysterious ways

i conclude chine-na ladies are born to cheat.
cheaters seems to write on their foreheads.
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sumone told me...falling in love is juz to know urself better.
how true. sumtimes u wish the one u're with now will be
with u forever. but only to find out that it will end one day.
its sad but thats when u realise who u really want.
regrets, sumtimes u juz cant. living with regrets is juz sad,
coz sum things juz cant be turned back.
when u choose to end one relationship, it takes alot of
courage to face it, to get over it.
when u feel sad seeing him/her with sumone else, u cry.
u feel sour in ur heart. tts when u noe u've truely lost sumone.
misses? i guess that can only be kept to urself.

interesting couple.

everyone's sick at home.
pls pls pls pls dun let me get the virus too!
and let them all get well soon.

work's pretty much slacker now due to chinese new year.
where the heck are the couples? bah...
i've been juz typing letters. not much artworks for me to do.
juz doing abit of artworks here n there to prepare for our
exhibition in march which hopefully im stil working there.

lets say sth interesting abt work since i've been juz grumbling.
today a couple came into the shop. (lets call them A and B)
the moment they stepped into the shop they ask if we sell cheap
old gowns. i was the one who served them so i ask wads their budget.
"perhaps about $50-$100?" A answered.
in my heart i tot "wad the heck u think our shop is? cny sales?"
but i politely answered "we do not have gowns that cheap. the cheapest
range is $100-$200."
they continued lookin at the gowns we have.
then B said pointing at a short white tea dress "hey, this is pretty, dun u think?"
A simply laughed and said "thats abit too kinky for u eh. you're not gonna wear
that are u?"
B looked on and commented "theres nothing more kinky here."
and after saying thank you they left.
there u have it, i juz served a gay couple. yay!
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you're full of surprises.

studies

im tired. perhaps really tired.
i wanna get a degree.
im sick of hearing from adults in the shop telling me
i cannot survive with juz a diploma.
hey i noe tt but wad can i do.
im broke i dun have money to study so i've gt to work.
but how much can i save when i need to pay for stuffs?
almost all my pay is gone.
how long muz i save to be able to afford to go overseas.

should i do sumthing i dun like to get more pay juz to save enough
faster to go overseas or should i stick with my stubborn self n do sth
i like n get less pay?
god, help me. im tired of thinkin.

lets get drunk.

baby, lets get drunk together and dance this lovely night away.
you rock my world! whee!
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okie...comment of today. clinic sucks.
MOS stil rocks. and i stil love VODka...
i think im crazy.
gdnite. :p