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its a saturday yet it doesnt felt like it at all.
early in the morning in the train seeing everyone dressed to go shopping
with their loved ones. im on my way to work. sigh.
n its nt like i had a great time at work today.
photo editing is crazy shit i tell u.
its damn hard la. esp when the guy has HUGE pores n double neck n
nose hair sticking out of his stupid big nose. n the gal has one smaller
eye in EVERY pic. gdness.
i need a life of my own.
anyway took off tmr. my very last weekend to hav fun.
i told myself if i dun enjoy myself tmr. i will slap myself.
i swear i need a break. think i've said so since fyp. sigh. but then i've nv had
a break for myself. nv. is being a workaholic a gd or bad thing. sigh.
i've finally gt a full time job. well im stil on probation for 3 months.
i guess i should be thankful i gt a job i wanted more or less.
n this job requires a great amount of sacrifice i swear!!!
here's gdbye to every weekend i hav frm now.
im gonna miss playing for youth, hangin out with church peeps after service,
meeting up frens on sats n after church....sigh!
wad can be worse with a fucking curfew despite of the stupid working hrs
everyday!?!?!?
working frm 1130 till 930 EVERYDAY! damn her. she stil told me
serve me right for getting such a job! COMMON! its a fucking job for christ
sake. wads ur god damn problem? so am i nt allowed to have a life with a job
like tt? its nt like i LOVE the working hrs so much. but i dun hav a freaking
choice!!!!!
honestly im pissed off. really pisssssseeeedddd!!!! sumone juz understand me can?
damnit. ARGH!
i juz need to rant rant n rant. i HATE THIS HOME. swear. nt much of one anyways.
wadeva.
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so i guess im nt much worth to be a fren to u huh. nt worth enough for u to ask out anyway.
there u are complaining n ranting abt u being pathetic. n here i am asking u out tonnes of
times n being rejected. i simply gave up with hearing u're busy n wadeva more u can give.
sick n tired sumtimes that i refuse to ask u out anymore. n so i see im nt worth to be ask out
anyway. so thanks. i get ur point. perhaps ur other frens are a thousand times more impt
than i am to u anyway. i am a fren u dun give a damn abt.
here i am stil online at 245am! i should be slping but i cant!!!!!!
work tmr. -_____-"
KT TUNSTALL LYRICS
"Suddenly I See"
Her face is a map of the world
Is a map of the world
You can see she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it
It makes you calm
She holds you captivated in her palm
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me
I feel like walking the world
Like walking the world
You can hear she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white
Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember
What you heard
She likes to leave you hanging on her word
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me
And she's taller than most
And she's looking at me
I can see her eyes looking from a page in a magazine
Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower
A big strong tower
She got the power to be
The power to give
The power to see
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me
happy...shalala...its so nice to be happy.
everybody should be happy.
a smile on my face shows the happiness i felt.
beyond any words can describe.
thanks a million.
life has its ups n downs.
i think i need a balance of them.
too much downs make me miserable.
yet sum things cant be shared.
makes it more miserable.
i miss my frens. i miss u. i miss the happy times.
weekends come quick.
i need a reason, a reason to stay.
happiness is defined to be ....
hap‧pi‧ness [hap-ee-nis]
–noun
1. the quality or state of being happy.
2. good fortune; pleasure; contentment; joy.
question is...am i happy?
'theres a hero if u look inside ur heart.
you dun hav to be afraid of wad u are.
theres an answer if u look into ur soul.
....and when the hero comes along'
a tingle of bittersweet tickles.
a sour tinge in thy twinkle.
jealousy.
i rem a lady once told me.
"never love one that dun love u back"
i chose to love him n gt myself hurt.
stupidity i call it.
comforting words sumtimes juz aint enough to cover the hidden hurt.
think things thru i hav to.
gd byes for now.
i have to let u go.
dearest,
u made me smile. =)
i'm missing u.
love,
shou zhu
i shouldnt be feeling this way.
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the defination of being anorexia:
"Anorexia is an eating disorder where people starve themselves.
Anorexia usually begins in young people around the onset of puberty.
Individuals suffering from anorexia have extreme weight loss.
Weight loss is usually 15% below the person's normal body weight.
People suffering from anorexia are very skinny but are convinced
that they are overweight (i think im FAT!).
Weight loss is obtained by many ways. Some of the common techniques
used are excessive exercise (hmm i've been thinkin of jogging...very unusual),
intake of laxatives (NO) and not eating (YES).
Anorexics have an intense fear of becoming fat (yes im scared of being fat!).
Their dieting habits develop from this fear. Anorexia mainly affects
adolescent girls (hmmmmm).
People with anorexia continue to think they are overweight even
after they become extremely thin, are very ill or near death. Often
they will develop strange eating habits such as refusing to eat in front
of other people. Sometimes the individuals will prepare big meals for
others while refusing to eat any of it.
The disorder is thought to be most common among people of higher
socioeconomic classes and people involved in activities where thinness
is especially looked upon, such as dancing, theater, and distance running.
SIGNS & SYMPTOMS OF ANOREXIA NERVOSA
* Feeling "fat" or overweight despite dramatic weight loss.
* Preoccupation with weight, food, calories, fat grams, and dieting.
* Refusal to eat certain foods, progressing to restrictions against whole
categories of food.
* Anxiety and intense fear about gaining weight or being "fat".
* Denial of hunger.
* Development of food rituals (i.e. eating foods in certain orders,
rearranging food on a plate).
* Consistent excuses to avoid mealtimes or situations involving food.
* Refusal to maintain body weight at minimally normal weight for height,
body type, age, and activity level.
* Excessive, rigid exercise regimen.
* Withdrawal from usual friends and activities.
* Loss of menstrual periods in girls and women post-puberty.
* Extreme concern with body weight and shape. (EXTREMELY!)
Cibophobia -> The fear of food."
i've gt a big HOLE in my TOE!!!!
guys can be real ASSHOLES.
lesbianism stil rules la. yayness to lesbianism!
heck abt the christian rules n wad so ever.
its time to let go. its time. =)
wheee! i feel so free.
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work has been quite a joy. but i think i need to work on my lateness...lol
i seriously should stop getting back to slp when i've woken up!
cab fares r killing me! bah.
enough of unearthly hours. lalallalaa
Bryan Adams - Never Let Go
can ya lay your life down - so a stranger can live
can ya take what ya need - but take less than ya give
could ya close everyday - without the glory and fame
could ya hold ya head high - when no-one knows your name
thats how legends are made - at least thats what they say
we say goodbye - but never let go
we live, we die - cause you cant save every soul
ya gotta take every chance to - show that you're the kinda man who
will never look back - will never look down
and never let go
can ya lose everything - ya ever had planned
can ya sit down again - and play another hand
could ya risk everything - for the chance of being alone
under pressure find the grace - would you come undone
thats how legends are made - at least thats what they say
we say goodbye - but never let go
we live, we die - cause you cant save every soul
ya gotta take every chance to - show that you're the kinda man who
will never look back - will never look down
and never let go - never let go
ya gotta take every chance to - show that you're the kinda man who
will never look back - will never look down
and never let go
we say goodbye - but never let go
we live, we die - cause you cant save every soul
ya gotta take every chance to - show that you're the kinda man who
will never look back - will never look down
and never let go
never look back - never look down, and never let go
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(holding juz fingertips)
he says: 'i won't let go'
i replied: 'i noe u won't'
-i took the gloves i was wearing off n down i fell back into the deep sea-
only one can live.
there will come a day when u have to decide who lives.
r u ready to make that decision?
*my guardian angel*
i feel the need to scream my guts out. ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i really cant tell u how much i miss u.
how i long to juz see ur face.
how i wish to see ur lovely smile.
i juz wish to hear ur voice.
mayb im wrong mayb.
im drained to the point of giving up.
but everytime i juz cant.
wad i feel is juz my own stupidity.
no one cares. not u.
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stay beside me n lend me ur broad shoulders to lie on.
i miss ur hugs n gentle touch.
ur sillyness, ur love.
do u feel wad i feel? i wonder n im stil wondering.
