bastards deserve to die

tears are flowing down my face.
i feel like crap.
seriously i hate sumone.
HATE.
i duno wad im feeling.
or wads goin on anymore.
FUCK it.

wads life?

hmm sometimes i wonder do dreams really exist?
wad can a dream tell u? how will u ever understand dreams?
i wish i knew. i feel kinda lost and not sure wad life's in store
right now. sumone said take each day as it comes.
but....dun u ever wish to wanna know ur future?
y does the future seems so far. sigh...
i nv felt like i dun where to head to. and its so unusual.
i used to know n am sure of where i wanna go. what
i wanna do next.

i miss the past. i miss those days when i was so happy.
or mayb nt that happy. i duno. perhaps the word is carefree?
heh. oh well. wadeva it is.

dar goin army soon. n i really mean SOON! sigh.
yes im gonna miss him alot. but at the same time i can oso have
time to be alone while hes away in tekong. time to read books, draw,
and mayb paint. i miss paintin. i stil think painting is wad i love to do
n nt design. sigh. i gt an artist mind. nt a designer's mind.

things bout me.

Your Kissing Purity Score: 74% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

Kissing Purity Test

Your French Name Is

Orane Renard

What's Your French Name?

Part Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

Part Freaky Kisser

When you kiss, you want to experience something new A new technique, a new partner, a new piercing... And your own personal kissing style is very unpredictable There's no saying where your tongue or hands will go

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

i giv up

im tired. tired of some things. i need to noe god's direction.
i duno wad to do.
sch sucks this sem. really. im slackin alot.
i really haven gt a real gd rest after SIP. n i tink i need one.
BADLY. my work haven been my best work.
my attendance had kill me. it really sucks.
TIRED is the word.
of everything.

in the darkness

is it even wrong to see a doc when im nt feeling well?
yes i hate tellin u alot of things. u r always kept in the dark
in alot of things. y nt ask urself y. i dun care if u dun trust me.
since its been like that since like the day i was born.
it doesnt really matter to me anymore. im numb to it.
u can scold for all i care. dun believe that im really sick so be it.
wad u wan me do. go ahead n call the stupid polyclinic. do i look
like im scared to u? u dun even noe that im sick now. so wad?
does it matter? wads the point of tellin u? get scolded for being sick?
it serves no purpose in alot of things u tell me to do.
it doesnt mean anything. u juz wan it coz U wan it. everytime home
can be so peaceful as long as u r out. me n dad can joke, can watch tv
together in peace. yes sumtimes dad can be bad tempered. but most of
the times its caused by U, U n U. so wad u noe now that i wasnt feeling
well, all i get was "serve u right."
"thanks alot mum."

Collin Raye - Love, Me

Love, Me
I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so"

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see
And between now and then, till I see you again
I'll be loving you. Love, me

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see
And between now and then, till I see you again
I'll be loving you. Love, me
Between now and then, till I see you again
I'll be loving you. Love, me

bad feeling

i tink im falling sick. my throat hurts.
i have been cold sweating really bad.
this really sucks. i hate wad im feeling
now. help me. *cries*

love story

i nv noe how much u mean to me til the day u left.
i love u with my deepest love i could ever offer.
i'll show u care when u needed.
hug u tight to feel the warmth u giv.
the sense of security with ur arms ard me.
nothing can ever replace anything i found in u.
hugz & kisses,
ur princess =)

joke of the day

Joke Of The Day:
A man was in his front yard mowing grass when his attractive blonde female neighbour came out of the house and went straight to the mailbox. She opened it then slammed it shut stormed back in the house. A little later she came out of her house again went to the mail box and again opened it, slammed it shut again. Angrily, back into the house she went. As the man was getting ready to edge the lawn, here she came out again, marched to the mail box, opened it and then slammed it closed harder than ever. Puzzled by her actions the man asked her, 'Is something wrong?' To which she replied, 'There certainly is! My stupid computer keeps saying, 'YOU'VE GOT MAIL'

surprise surprise

went sch to do my project today. spend at least 3 hrs cutting
the stupid 2metres long decoration on the fibre paper.
i tink grace n my hands r hurtin real bad when we finish man.
we had craving for HOT milo. haha. so went for a drink before
headin to the lib with her. well, stayed at lib til 5 den head to
meet dar. reach there kinda half an hr early so juz sat at my
usual spot n start tinkin abt my proj. heh. at 6, walked to wait
for him outside his office tower 1 lift. but apparently he went
out frm the tower 2 lifts instead. anyway, he walked to where
i was n there he was holdin a bouquet of sth in his hands.
actually tot was his present frm his colleagues, BUT..... it was
for ME ME N ME!!!! hehe. so surprised man. i was speechless
for a few secs i tink. heh. beautiful orange daisy he bought.

pretty isnt it? =D
anyway, we decided to head to esplanade's makansutra to eat.
i tell u! i love the food there. yummy hokkien mee, n delicious
seafood horfun!!! n u can enjoy the beautiful scenery too!!
PERFECT!!

beautiful scenery aint it?

dar dar n me.

oops! im being captured eatin my yummylicious food!

on the left is my bro. he actually asked me to take a photo
of him. n tts how he posed for me. heh. asked him who taught
him that pose. he say: "ruben korkor lor." cute little boy. heh.
n on the right is dar tryin to imitate him. haha. very cute too.
dar, u should frown more. coz i realise my bro is frowning. haha.

ten great ways of committing suicide.

photos from alvaro's concert

group photo.

the cotl gals.

left: joey with all the girls' bags. cute? hah.
right: dar n me.

dar on electric, caleb on acoustics n paul on the drums.

the full band. with noeline on keyboards and ernest on the bass.
i tink they r really talented.
i shall update abt wads goin on another day. heh.
anyway, dar's bday is this sat. i'm preparing a wonderful n memorable day for him.
=D