i've been sick for a week now. stil juz as bad. not much improvement. i finally gave in to seeing a doc this morning. after a close shave frm dying. lost of breath due to my cough nt to mention my voice too. this is wad the doc say 'u wun get back ur voice till a week. meanwhile, tok less, dun sing, dun scream nor shout.' oh great. i hereby hope n pray hard i get back before a week. haaa. i cant comment much abt work yet...haven been to work seriously. monday, first day of work, i had nt much of a voice but i stil made like 80 calls? end of the day? throat hurt much more than ever. tues, second day of work, i hav like totally no voice! i couldnt tok! so dun even bother doin any calling at all. i wrap stuffs instead. which i love doin. haha. i was too damn unwell. i left office at 3pm. wanted to stay til later but i had a terrible nose bleed that gave everyone a scare. so yea. i went back. been on leave frm then on. hopefully by coming mon i'll be well. =)
fever, sore throat, diarrhoea n cough. n yet insomnia. nevertheless, adding on to it all. i cant eat anything except things that can flow down my throat without chewing. which is nothing but soup. nt a bad way to lose weight eh?
mayb i dun wish to get well. mayb i rather get worst. mayb i juz wanna be down so that im too weak to think nor move.
im tired. too tired. take me away lord if u need to. take me away.
i've fallen sick. sore throat causing a pounding headache. fever causin bodyaches and diarrhoea. i feel really terrible. yet.... wads the worst that can happen now? i stil hav my insomnia.
i cant tell u how much this musical means to me. the songs meant so much to me. esp 'my only chance'. her only chance to get the love she wants. wheres my chance? its a fantastic musical. music was great. KIT CHAN is really GD! haa...a musical that kept all still n seated on their seats throughout.
nobody noes me. nobody sees the dreams in my heart. nobody noes. nobody noes. this is my only chance. love open my heart. this is my only chance. love make me apart of sumone that noes me.
e days alone. e nights of hell. i need to feel his gentle touch. the winter's night need fire. like temples need a shrine. like lovers need desire. i need him. cant he see. i need him to be mine.
WOMAN...no longer the weak. they r powerful now. they can rule the world. the struggles they go thru. who can noe but themselves. they appear strong, they fight the battles of love, they wipe the tears deep down. but truely how much they cried inside? the secret kept deep inside. they wish the man of their lifes r with them to fight with them. but where art thou? where r u my man? where r u when i needed u?
fyp is officially over. had my presentation today. was a paranoid freak the whole morning. i was the first to present. feels scary. yet its a gd thing im first. less lecturers. when i went in, there was only 4...n when i finish tokin, more came in. terrence(the lecturer i hated since yr1) he came in. din see my work. he was sumwhere else. guess he noes I HATE HIM. i was bombarded with many negative comments for my posters. but at least they r happy with my brochure. quoted by james na '...i will give u credit for doin sth interesting n different...at least u nv do sth like AIDS. so common.' haha. ok...i guess i should say thanks. lillie was goin nonstop abt how expensive ads cost n how they will NOT approve of mine coz it juz doesnt work. OOOOKK. i get ur point woman. they had so much to say. im glad i noe insomnia well enough to shut them up with questions on insomnia n who it affects. lol. i did my research well. after that they juz went on n on abt how i SHOULD hav done my posters. which of coz i dun understand wads the point of it. coz its already DONE! its a presentation but it turn out to be like a crit. haa. nvm. teng hong wasnt ard during my presentation. sad but i made it thru myself. i din feel demoralised. i felt a sigh of relief that im done with it.
later i waited for all to finish. of coz that includes my dearest shawn. haa. glad his went well too. had lunch together with him n jenna. then shawn left. jenna n i started tokin abt sum stuffs. its amazing to noe i wasnt alone to feel the way i did. up till now, i wish he understood my stand. i wish he gave me time. i wish. but i noe its nt up to me to ask of him. i guess im stil here waiting for a day hes back by my side. i juz wanna be an angel watching over him by the side. his lil sunflower always.
after jenna n eugene left, i went to rot in the studio. juz chit chatting on msn. haha..wasnt feeling well n all. i had diarrhoea since yday. im havin a bad throat n cough. my wisdom tooth hurts. both bottom ones. i hav a hard time eatin anything. no appetite. knowing it will go straight down n i will hav to run to the toilet. damnit. i left sch at 4 n head to the airport. met cal at the bus stop waiting for 27. been a long time i met him. nice chatting for a short while. at the airport i juz waited n waited n waited till his flight landed. which was at 6? i think so. saw sultan n belinda. n gt to noe that manson is comin too...n best of all. dan's parents were there too. parents drove us back to his place. then we head for dinner at perdana. funny stuffs happened there. haha. he was sharing with us abt his adventures. interesting n funny at the same time. lol. after tt we all head home. when i was waiting for my bus to go back home frm ten mile junction i gt an sms frm ben. he told me wad terrence said.
below is the detailed conversation of theirs...frm ben thru msn to me. b: did you kill anyone as usual? he knew i was refering to you... and said... t: wasnt too bad... mildred did good... in fact the lecturers were impressed t: what was she worried about at all? or why? b: hur hur... :)
ben oso told me that terrence said that i hav good visual skills. coming frm terrence its NAN DE. i hated this man since yr 1. for his straight forward crit. n nt of ur work but u. guess im glad to hear the nice comments. but then again. results r up to ALL of them nt juz him alone. all in all, i had a great day. im truly happy today. nth more i can ask for. god really answered all my tiny prayers thruout the day. in ways i nv realised till i think abt it.
i wish sumone share my joy with me. i wish sumone could celebrate with me. now tt dan's back...its busy time for STIR. heh.
tmr im goin to elaine's. bake stuffs. play with the kids. at night gonna meet anisha. haven seen her for so long. =)
last but nt least, i need a job asap. i need money. i need sth to do. i dun wanna stay home n rot this holiday away. ------- Artist: Bosson Song: One in a Million
You're one in a million Oh Now You're one in a million Oh
Sometimes love can hit you every day Sometimes you can fall for everyone you see But only one can really make me stay A sign from the sky Said to me
[Chorus] You're one in a million You're once in a lifetime You made me discover one of the stars above us You're one in a million You're once in a lifetime You made me discover one of the stars above us
I've been looking for that special one And I've been searching for someone to give my love And when I thought that all the hope was gone A smile, there you were and I was gone
I always will remember how I felt that day A feeling indescribable to me Yeah I always knew there was an answer for my prayer And you, you're the one for me
[Chorus x 2]
In the beginning I was cool and everything was possible They tried to catch me but it was impossible No one could hurt me it was my game Until I met you baby and you were the same And when you didn't want me I wanted you because The funny thing about it is I liked the show I like it when its difficult I like it when its hard Then you know its worth it That you found your heart
[Chorus x 2]
You're one in a million Oh You're one in a million
every tear means a million misses i miss u so much baby. i felt like calling u so many times but i had to stop myself. i wonder if u miss me at all. i wish u were beside me now comforting me like u always do. encourage me n make me feel gd. i miss ur touch. ur hand, ur shoulder. most of all, i miss u. losing u is the greatest pain in me. like a knife stabbed right thru my heart. but i wish u nv gave me any cold treatment y cant u treat me like ur special fren like wad u said. baby, i juz miss u so much. this month without u ard. it has its ups n downs. but thru it all, im missing u.
comlicated world, tell me wad u hav in store. i danced thru the night in arms i trust. high on the dancefloor late into the night. shouts of frustration n burden let out in all. felt like a different gal they nv saw. losing myself to the surrounding im in. in control of self n its all ok. freedom i had its pure enjoyment. loved it all in all. ----- it nv felt so gd to forget it all for tt moment.
