peace be with me.

the feeling of jumpin off is back again. once again i feel upset.
upset with how my life is. upset with things happening.
upset with many things.

y is there such a big change? now i realise u hated everything.
mayb if things din start i wun want it. y is sendin me hme becomin such a chore?
things r becomin so different. i do hate it.

y tink of it as im being unreasonable when i complain abt u goin out late.
coz i wasnt. all i wanted was for u to slp. y cant tink that im caring abt u?
instead of thinkin im controllin u.

i am bothered by wad ppl say of me. i am bothered even if u speak up for me.
i dun understand y jennie has such a big mouth.
i guess i cant trust anyone nowadays right.
esp her. i trusted her with my past. but seems like i juz found out she din keep it to herself.
but she 'helped' me announce to ppl. am i suppose to say thanks?
worse thing is who is she to say abt my past. esp since she noes no shit.
she juz tink im the one who make use of my bfs. but who is she to say that?
she dun even noe my bfs. she dun even noe wad goes on.
(*name of the person i tokin abt is fake here.)

can frens be trusted nowadays?
i dun tink i really trust anyone.
nt even my own bf sumtimes. y do i feel like everyone is putting up a front in
front of me? is it juz me or is it they r really doin so.

if only sumone can ans all my doubts. other den god who i dun even trust now.