let it rest

it never felt so good when u let things rest. dun think abt it, dun let it bother u. have all the fun in the world u can have while u can. life should be happy. i think after telling myself that i should not think too much, i should not let others affect me. i realised that i am happy, so much happier. :) i miss my frens, i miss everyone else ard me. i love them all coz i noe they love me too. maybe, maybe one day i might just be able to do wad i always said i wish i could do. for now, i am happy with the way it is.

work has been so much better too. late nights and all but its the joy n satisfaction that motivates u. i love my job! though i still quietly hate some of my colleagues. some...hahaha...the carefree days seems to be back in my life! WOOOHOOO!

may JOY FILLS MY LIFE AND MY DEAREST FRENS TOO!~ i love u guys very much.

baby, baby, baby, noooo

Baby Lyrics

[Justin Bieber]
Oh woooah, oh woooooah, oh wooooah, oh.
You know you love me, I know you care,
just shout whenever and I’ll be there.
You are my love, you are my heart
and we will never ever ever be apart.
Are we an item? girl quit playing,
we’re just friends, what are you saying.
Said there’s another, look right in my eyes,
my first love broke my heart for the first time.
And I was like…

[Chorus]
Baby, baby, baby oooooh,
like baby, baby, baby noooooooo,
like baby, baby, baby, ooooh.
Thought you’d always be mine, mine (repeat)

[Justin Beiber]
Oh, for you I would have done whatever,
and I just can’t believe we aint together
and I wanna play it cool the thought of losing you
I buy you anything, I buy you any ring,
and now please say baby fix me and you shake me til’ you wake me from this bad dream.
I’m going down down down down
and I just can’t believe my first love won’t be around.
And I’m like…

[Chorus]

[Ludacris]
Luda, When I was 13 I had my first love,
there was nobody that compared to my baby
and nobody came between us, no-one could ever come above
She had me going crazy, oh I was star-struck,
she woke me up daily, don’t need no Starbucks.

She made my heart pound, I skip a beat when I see her in the street and
at school on the playground but I really wanna see her on the weekend.
She knows she got me dazing cause she was so amazing
and now my heart is breaking but I just keep on saying….

[Chorus]

Now I’m gone,
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
now I’m all gone.
Gone, gone, gone, gone, I’m gone.

i am an idiot

y do i even bother trying to work this r/s out with someone who doesnt want to?
y do i even bother caring for someone's feelings when he doesnt care abt mine?
y do i even bother trying to say anything when he thinks i have no rights to say?
y am i loving someone so much that i just wanna be with him and make this r/s last?
y am i so stupid? y cant i just let it go?
y cant i let go of someone that doesnt need me at all?

loving someone isnt it suppose to do things together n stay with each other thru everything?
y do i feel like im the only one who want this to last?
all he thinks is "wad ifs" that doesnt exist nw...then wad if u dun wanna try committing and u end up losing someone u love? it doesnt matter to you does it? work then gd lor if nt nvm lor. how do u even expect sth to work when u dun wish it does coz u dun wanna try to make it work.

y cant i just let it go? maybe i should try to fuck care too. maybe i can let out someday.
i feel like such a fool to believe in love. it doesnt exist does it?

i am an idiot!

goddess at home

yeah yeah u make it sound like you are so great.
yeah indeed i am thankful that when i gt no money i ask from u, u will give me.

BUT HAVE YOU TOT ABOUT HOW I FEEL TO GIVE AWAY HALF MY PAY SINCE I'VE STARTED WORKING TO THE HOUSE???????????? FUCK! STOP TOKING TO ME ABOUT MONEY UNLESS SOMEONE IN THIS HOUSE IS SHARING THAT WITH ME!!

FUCK YOU!

moreover, i return you the money i borrow once i get my pay....wtf are u grumbling so much abt!? i keep quiet coz i dun wanna argue with u anymore...its late, im fucking tired, i took medi! fuck! dun u fucking take it that im a DUMB! !@#%&!@#!^@%$#!@*##$^&&^