this post is dedicated to my darling gf!

juz for u chelle! love u! enjoy this special day of urs okies?
blessings of joy shall rain unto u today!
*muacks.............

living in a cell

i wish i hear nothing. i wish i could shut off then.
i wish to lock myself in my room with my bro in my hands.
i wish im juz a small kid, worry free, carefree.
juz wad is so painful that i duno how to explain.
an inner child of fear runs to a corner to hide n shiver in fear.
protecting her one n only love frm the evil things hes nt to hear.
hoping he grows up to noe these r things he should nv noe.
i dun wan him listening to all the negative things i hear.
tts all i could do to protect u lil bro. hide in ur room, ur lil corner while i shut ur ears.
innocent as u mayb. nt knowing wad they were saying at all.
i'll listen ur share n translate a funny joke.

as tears run down my cheeks, i tell myself...stay strong stay strong.
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Jesse Mccartney - Stupid Things

Just charge it to my account
I hope I haven’t gone over my limit
With interest rates so swift
No need to scream and shout
No doubt if women are from Venus now
I’ll get to them somehow

Chorus:
All I wanna do is please you
Please myself by living my life too
And all the stupid things I do
Have absolutely no reflection on
How I feel about you How I feel a ohh
All the stupid things I do
Have absolutely no reflection on
How I feel about you How I feel about you, yeah

Yes I recall skipping on breakfast to play basketball
And feeling two feet small
Sometimes you read like William Shakes
Your scent is sweet, like Betty Crocker bakes
I’d love to have your cake and eat it too

(Chorus)

All I wanna do is please you
Please myself by living my life too
And all the stupid things I do
Have absolutely no reflection on
How I feel about you How I feel ohh
How I feel about you, yeahhh ohhhh yeahh

life at work.

its my second week working already.
i would say. work has been boring yet fun. haha.
oxymoron? mayb. boring coz all i do is sit n call.
'gd morning. this is ______ calling on behalf of _____......'
yeah whole day i juz sit n call n pretend to be nice on the phone
despite hearing irritating n rude ass. BLEAH!

i cant wait for teng hong to come hav lunch with me soon.
lookin forward to share all my stupid silly experiences here with him.
hahaha...soon he said...yay! he'll find me for lunch soon. feasting time!

meals at work hav been simple tabaoing back to office. coz i enjoy eating
with sheryl n jarnel. so yeah...so far only once we went red star restaurant
to hav dim sum together with cindy...whoa! fantastic meal! haha...
COZ THE BOSS (Kim) wasnt ard! hahahahahahaha...hav been stayin back
in the office to wait for sheryl. sumtimes we go out to run errands, sumtimes dinner.
sumtimes juz GO HOME LA! i love work! whee!

sadly, no more thailand mission trip for me. oh well.
wad to do. suck finger n cry.
so i see i can go NUS on 20 oct to see stir perform! way cool!
would really love to see them on stage. =)
stir has my whole support! way to go guys!

tts all the updates frm me now. meanwhile, i shall suck finger n cry.
there goes my longing for 18oct n a break. ciaoz

today might be the last.

Tell your girlfriend/boyfriend how much they mean to you and how much you love them. You'll never know, this might be the last time..
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Chinie is a typical college girl who enjoys life to the fullest. She loves her boyfriend so much and texts him every now and then.

JM is Chinie's boyfriend who works in a call center in Ortigas. He's always busy doing so many
things. He only manage to reply to Chinie's texts when he got off from work.

One time JM receive a message from Chinie: "hi baby! how r u? miss u! call me when u come home k?! tc! lovu!"

JM ignored the message because he always receive the same message whenever it is time for
him to go home from work.

"baby,i miss u already! did u eat yet?! take care when u go home! ill be w8ing 4 ur call.
lovu!"

"baby,where r u?! u're not replying to my msg. well,ill b here w8ing for ur call! lovu!"

JM reaches home and lay on his bed. The last time he knew is tha he's reading Chinie's text.
He was so tired he fall asleep and wasn't able to return Chinie's call. He can still hear his phone
beeps but he's too tired to take a glimpse on the message.

When he woke up the next day, he remember that he needs to call Chinie. He ignored the
messages and dialed Chinie's #. No one's answering in her house. He called up her cellphone and he was surprised that her father answered the call. In his voice you can feel his tears and hear his heart tearing apart.


"JM, why'd you call just now? Chinie's been waiting for you!"

"Dad sorry. I was tired so i fell asleep. I called at home but no one answered. Where are you now?"

"Just wait for us at home"

JM went to Chinie's house and much to his surprised he saw a lot of people inside. The house
were so lighted but you can see the gloom on every person you'll meet there. He was greeted by Chinie's mom on tears. She hug him tight and cried on his shoulders.

"Chinie was waiting for you. She didnt go out with us cause she was waiting for your call. She was killed last night by some robbers who came in here. She's gone JM, she's gone!!"

"Ma,Chinie texted me last night..how could that have happened?!"

JM can't look who's inside the coffin. He can't move and it feels like his whole body is stucked
on the chair his seating. He wanted to cry but it seems that something is blocking his tears to fall down. He turn to his phone and read the messages of Chinie.

"Baby, i'll be waiting for you to call. I wont go out with dad anymore!"

"Baby, i'm scared. I think there's someone downstairs. Pls call me already!"

"Baby, they're here. What if they kill me. Pls call me. Baby where are you? I need you here now.
Pls baby i can hear them come..."

"Baby.... i love you!..."

He wanted to shout and cry so loud. It's true that Chinie is waiting for his call. Up to her last breath she only thinks about him.

He stare at Chinie inside the coffin. Suddenly tears starts flowing down his cheeks. He can't say anything. The only words he uttered...

"My baby, i'm so sorry! I could have known, i could have fight for you! i'm really sorry! I love you so much!"