*boom boom boom. i seriously can start playin drums on my tummy now. argh. its damn uncomfortable. though i put oilment n rubbed n drank lotsa WARM water, its stil nt helping. sobz. damn sad. i feel bloated n the urge to puke all my food out.
anyway, been kinda sad suddenly nowadays. reason i duno y. is it coz i feel caged up? i seriously wish one day i get the freedom to go out till wadeva time i wan n nt get questioned. i need to chill. i need to get out of the hse for fresh air. im so tired of seeing faces everyday. get me a freaking job. life bookshop call me! argh. i dun wanna stay home anymore. i dun wanna be home to be a slave, i dun wanna be home to get angry with bro n irritated by dad. im so sick of it. sumtimes i wish i could see u, but i cant get out. i wish to tok to u online, but u aint free. i wish to tok to u, but u need slp. i dun wanna be the reason u're stayin awake. i wish weekends are to be looked forward to. but they arent.
gonna go to sch tmr to collect my ten grad books. seriously i duno how im gonna carry them but wadeva. i had to. at least i hav cal to let me put sum at his place. thanks cal. hope u get well soon okies? i really duno if i could go anywhere else after collecting my books. i wish. can i? haiz. wadeva. fuck this life i hav.
responsibility responsibility.....when can i hav a life i call my own?
ok lets be serious here. haa. i've been reading a book titled 'where is GOD when it hurts?'. its a really interesting book that elaine lend me when i was really down. i really think we should thank god for PAIN!. think im nuts to say that? i tot i was too. but here let me share with u wad i read.
Painless Hell.
"The word leprosy conjures up to exaggerated images stubby fingers, ulcerous wounds, missing legs, distorted facial features. It is the oldest recorded diseases n also one of the most feared. Leprosy is indeed cruel, but not in the manner of most diseases. Primarily, it works like an anesthetic, attacking the pain cells of hands, feet, nose, ears, and eyes to produce numbness. not so bad, really one might think. most diseases are feared because of their pain, wad makes a painless disease so horrible?.....
....dr. brand went to fetch sum supplies frm a little storeroom behind the hosp. he tried to open the door, but a rusty padlock would not yield. just at that moment, one of his youngest patients strolled by-an undersized, malnourished ten yr old. brand liked the boy for his pleasant, cooperative spirit. "Oh, sahib doctor, let me try," the boy said, and reached for the key. with a quick jerk of his hand he turned the key in the lock. brand was dumbfounded. how could this weak youngster, half his size, exert such force? his eyes caught a telltale clue. was that a drop of blood on the floor? upon examining the boy's index finger, brand discovered the act of turning the key had gashed it open to the bone; skin, fat, and joint were all exposed. yet the boy was completely unaware of it! to him, the sensation of cutting his finger to the bone was no different from that of picking up a stone or turning a coin in his pocket. after that incident, brand redoubled his efforts to test his theory abt leprosy being a secondary, not a primary cause of injury....
pain is not an unpleasantness to be avoided at all costs. in a thousand ways large and small, pain serves us each day, making possible normal life on this planet. if we are healthy, pain cells alert us when to go to the bathroom, when to change shoes, when to loosen the grip on a mop handle or rake, when to blink. without pain, we would lead lives of paranoia, defenseless against unfelt dangers. the only safe environment for a painless person is to stay in bed all day....but even that produces bedsores."
now will u thank god for pain now? i do... ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i miss chelle n rah. sobz. that day at sentosa with them was great. i miss u two gals alot! chelle, meet up soon okies? rah, u've been missed n i wished i could see u off. come back soon! which will be end of the yr eh? lols
well my day started off BORING. haa. plans changed many times. first was to go sch to return lib book then meet grace go dip show before meetin him. but in the end, i din go sch as i was too lazy. n grace oso decided nt to go dip show today. gonna go tmr with grace n rachel instead. i went hong's hse while she got ready to meet her frens. so i went for fun la. yeah. then went causeway point to meet mike. hoping i can cheer him up alittle. but i guess im of no help. sigh.
my night was PURRfect n i love it. totally enjoyed myself. wad a beautiful night. =) thank you. heee. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- jason mraz - wordplay
I've been all around the world I've been a new sensation But it doesn't really matter In this ge-generation The sophomore slump is an uphill battle And someone said that ain't my scene 'Cause they need a new song Like a new religion Music for the television I can't do the long division Someone do the math For the record label puts me on the shelf up in the freezer Gotta find another way to live the life of leisure So I drop my top, Mix and I mingle Is everybody ready for the single and it goes...
Ha La La La La Now listen closely to the verse I lay Ha La La La La It's all about the wordplay Ha La La La Love The wonderful thing it does Because, because I am the wizard of ooh's and ah's and fa-la-la's Yeah the Mister A to Z They say I'm all about the wordplay
When it's time to get ill I got your remedy For those who don't remember me Well let me introduce you to my style I try to keep a jumble in' the lyrics never mumble When the music's makin' people tongue-tied You want a new song Like a new religion Music for the television I can't do the long division Someone do the math For the people write me off like I'm a one-hit wonder Gotta find another way to keep from goin' under Pull out the stops, Got your attention I guess it's time again for me to mention The wordplay
Ha La La La La Now listen closely to the verse I lay Ha La La La La It's all about the wordplay Ha La La La Love The wonderful thing it does Because, because I am the wizard of ooh's and ah's and fa-la-la's Yeah the Mister A to Z They say I'm all about the wordplay
I built a bridge across the stream of consciousness That always seems to be a flowin' But I don't know which way my brain is goin' Oh the ryhmin' and the timin' Keeps the melodies inside me And they're climbin' 'Til I'm running out of air Are you prepared to take a dive into the deep end of my head Are you listening to a single word I've said?
Ah La La La La Listen closely to the words I say Ah La La La La I'm stickin' to the wordplay Ah La La La Love The wonderful thing it does Because, because I am the wizard of ooh's and ah's and fa-la-la's Yeah the Mister A to Z They say I'm all about the wordplay
Ha La La La La I'm all about the wordplay Ha La La La La I'm stickin' with the wordplay Ha La La La Love I love the wonderful thing it does Because, because The ooh's and ah's and fa-la-la's are back in love For the Mister A to Z they say Is all about the wordplay
