alone.

where r all my frens? i seems lost all the time.
i hate feeling lonely. i hate seeing ppl goin out with frens.
i have no frens. no one to share my joys n sorrows.
sumtimes having a bf dun mean anything.
frens r important. bf sumtimes cant be relied on.

i feel like im in a dilema. leave or not?
stay or not? hang on or turn away.
i feel like im breakin down.
like a break down train. out of no where,
out of no reasons, suddenly it juz stop. n it cant work.
he reminds me of sumone im afraid to face.
when things go wrong.

i feel ashamed since that day. i feel like i cant face ppl now.
i feel like hiding my face. i really wanted to.
wad wil ppl say? wad will ppl think?
even ppl close to me. wad r they really thinkin in their minds?
i really duno. i feel like everyone is like strangers.
i duno wads goin on in their minds. i really cant figure.
who can i really trust? i cant even trust the one who died for me.
who else can i really trust. i cant even trust myself anymore.
i duno wads goin on. i really dun.
im breakin down to pieces.
may sumone stick them back when they find the pieces.

meaning of lies.

dun say wad u dun mean.
dun say wad u wun do.
dun say wad wun happened.
dun giv excuses for nt doin sth.
it doesnt work this way.

say wad u mean.
say wad u wil do.
say wad wil happened.
excuses wun be needed.
all are happy.

empty promises hurts.
it breaks the trust we have.
im disappointed in you.
that i duno wad else to say.

dead.

pls kill me before i kill myself.

suicidal mind.

blame it on stress.

hols or nt?

this week is suppose to be so called my holiday.
or is it a holiday at all?
been thinkin hard abt my advertising. tryin to solve
the problem of havin to take photos.
but i guess i found the best way. hee
STOCK IMAGES!!
yeah tts wad im goin to do. i noe its cheating
but i cant be bothered already. since my fren
is goin to do so den i am doin too. haa.

anyway, i have a 'new' fone today.
realise its 'new' not new.
hee. confused? haa.
well, im using my dad's old fone now.
mummy's using my old fone.
as for daddy, the lucky fellow.
he is using the newest fone that mummy bought.
it cost 200+bucks! y nt they save it n buy me a plan.
wadeva. i shall nt grumble.
quite happy with my so called new fone. hee.
used to love it alot when it juz came out. tot its unique.
though now i may nt like it as much as i did,
but i stil like it more den my old 1. hee.
well im now using T610 silver. hee.

anyway, attachment wil be starting in like a week
plus. sigh. pls let me enjoy my hols!