sucks

life's getting so tiring that sometimes i just dun wish to live.
the whole week i've been drinking and drinking like no tomorrow.
terrible week, i week i wish i can forget.

found out m has been lying to me all the while. he has more than just one gf.
or one other gf. apparently i heard he has more than a handful.
i din want to believe abt maggie...my boss's cousin. heard m n her are together
but i choose to deceive myself. tues night...my smart boss gave me her number
and gave her my number as well. we smsed. she told me to go meet her at dungeon.
which was where m is at that time as well. i went down hoping to find out things for
myself too. and yes i did. they were abt to get up his car. he gt a shocked when he saw me.
pretended that i was drunk. pretended that me n him = nothing. he even asked him buddy,
mel to come out and get me away. and guess what....just half an hr before i went down dungeon,
he msged me "i love u". my heart was torn to see him drive off with her. BUT...maybe it
was a good thing i have too many ppl that dotes on me...n mel is one of them.
he told me many many things, m is just a player. i shall not get into details.
m is in HK now. good for me. dun have to see him. i heard he told others that me n him broke up
but i kept pestering him. n he mentioned abt sex. haa..irony how others can stil think he n i really
broke up...so y the sex huh?

anyway, fri...my boss gt back. found out from others that i made a commotion at dungeon that
night...but seriously i din scream nor anything...all i did...ask m what is goin on.
anyway he oso heard abt c....so i was questioned if i was with c. n i admited...
so there goes my job. i have to tender my resignation TODAY! but i have yet to find another job.
im happy with c right now. cayman cannot be any better...he stood by me when he noes abt m.
he stood by me when i cried over m.

so heres my shitty week. lost the one i love most, been with him for a yr to only find out he's
cheating on me all the while. lost my job coz i choose an agent as my bf. life really cannot suck any much more.