the confused mind

i shouldnt be feeling this way.
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the defination of being anorexia:

"Anorexia is an eating disorder where people starve themselves.
Anorexia usually begins in young people around the onset of puberty.
Individuals suffering from anorexia have extreme weight loss.
Weight loss is usually 15% below the person's normal body weight.
People suffering from anorexia are very skinny but are convinced
that they are overweight (i think im FAT!).
Weight loss is obtained by many ways. Some of the common techniques
used are excessive exercise (hmm i've been thinkin of jogging...very unusual),
intake of laxatives (NO) and not eating (YES).

Anorexics have an intense fear of becoming fat (yes im scared of being fat!).
Their dieting habits develop from this fear. Anorexia mainly affects
adolescent girls (hmmmmm).

People with anorexia continue to think they are overweight even
after they become extremely thin, are very ill or near death. Often
they will develop strange eating habits such as refusing to eat in front
of other people. Sometimes the individuals will prepare big meals for
others while refusing to eat any of it.

The disorder is thought to be most common among people of higher
socioeconomic classes and people involved in activities where thinness
is especially looked upon, such as dancing, theater, and distance running.

SIGNS & SYMPTOMS OF ANOREXIA NERVOSA
* Feeling "fat" or overweight despite dramatic weight loss.
* Preoccupation with weight, food, calories, fat grams, and dieting.
* Refusal to eat certain foods, progressing to restrictions against whole
categories of food.
* Anxiety and intense fear about gaining weight or being "fat".
* Denial of hunger.
* Development of food rituals (i.e. eating foods in certain orders,
rearranging food on a plate).
* Consistent excuses to avoid mealtimes or situations involving food.
* Refusal to maintain body weight at minimally normal weight for height,
body type, age, and activity level.
* Excessive, rigid exercise regimen.
* Withdrawal from usual friends and activities.
* Loss of menstrual periods in girls and women post-puberty.
* Extreme concern with body weight and shape. (EXTREMELY!)

Cibophobia -> The fear of food."