season of unloved.

honestly, i feel so unloved. its the season of love. but i feel like im nt loved at all.

this is sth i gt frm wad karen wrote...i think its so true.
"But since it has been around for as long as we ever know, we don't have to look at it with skepticism. At least not that much.. Is that so much harm to show someone you love a little bit more? I have heard people rant on about how silly this day is and how it doesn't mean anything. Yet all around, people smile sweetly with the flowers and gifts they hold in the hands. Don't get me wrong, love is not measured by flowers and showering of gifts. But this day can be the day where you do an extra thing for your lover. A surprise bouquet, a single rose makes someone's day. Well, I don't know anyone who receive flowers everyday. If i can bring an extra smile to the person i love today, why not?

But gifts are just materials. Sometimes all a girl ever need is a compliment, a "thank you for all your love", a card or a whispered "I Love You". It's a special day for the emotion we call love. Of expressing it and feeling loved."

i dun need gifts to noe u love me. i only wish to hear u say u love me. call me ur dearest.
seems like u wun. n nv will. u're nt willing to say it. u're nt willing to show any love or
show that u cared for me. each day i cry myself to slp.

y is this gal cryin alone at the train station on vday?
y does she looks so upset n dissapointed?
i guess that muz be wad sum ppl muz be thinkin yday night.
wads the point of getting myself all pretty up?
hoping to get sum love frm him. by the end of the day, all the time i spend wanting this night to
be romantic juz went into thin air. no present nvm. but i dun even hear 'i love u dear' or
'happy valentine's day dear'. nothing. absolutely NOTHING.
i controlled my tears the whole night. acting like im ok when im nt.
the moment i step out of the car, tears juz flowed like theres no end to it, all the way home.

like as if feeling out of his life nt enough, now im feeling like im no longer loved.

a break....taking a break solves nothing at all. but it seems like hes enjoying it...
all the time, every single time, its him who wants it. wads the point of avoiding it by taking
a stupid break? n so wad if we get back together? the problem is stil there. coz he nv
wanna tok abt it. coz he avoids all of it. wad i need to say, i've said. if u love taking breaks
so much n u stil refuse to hav a gd talk to solve all our problems. this taking break shit will
come back. everytime. few months ago we had a break, so wad? now? u wan it again? is it
so fun? if u dun feel the hurt i do!
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went sentosa with chelle n rah on the 13th feb...nice weather. though it got alittle cloudy after
like 2 n a half hrs of tanning...it was fun n we three finally met up! hee.
i really enjoyed my time there with them busking in the sun, baking myself.
n im suffering frm sunburn on my back now! OUCH!
after that we went to eat at pasta mania in harbourfront then head to city hall.
initially wanna go suntec but we end up goin esplanade. hee.
three girls goin crazy over oldies. singing really loudy. im sorry for the ppl there.
hahahhaa. their ears arent spared. hahaha. went simpang to meet the guys for dinner/our supper?
hahaha. yeah. tot was only kenny n paul. nv did i expect to see cal there.
i din eat, juz drank ice teh. the sad part is....i din feel well when we leaving. that i almost
puke in the cab! n i did the moment i step out of the cab. no idea wads wrong, or wad
i ate wrong. but i felt better after puking everything out n resting at cal's place.
nice of him to make hot herbal tea for me n hugging me making me feel really comfortable.
thank u.