a letter to u!

u may think u've given me alot. but honestly, alot means different for everyone.
money spend i cant disagree. time? dun really think so. considering the fact that
im home most of the time. please me? for god sake, if u did please me, i wun be
so unhappy. wad i wan is nt money, time, or wadeva shit. i only wish u cared
n bothered that im sumone special to u. but i felt like im treated as nobody.
i felt like im left out of ur life. ur frens noe more things in ur life than i did.
hav u told me anything abt ur uni? have u told me anything abt ur medical board?
i dun think so. i read them all frm ur blog or frm others' mouth. a gf had to do that
n nt knowing it herself. u gimmie attitude when u like it. n i hav to tolerate it.
i tried to nt rem when u cant even be bothered with me. when u simply ignored
my presence. i giv excuses for myself to make myself happier. if thats wad
a relationship should be then fine u did it. u made me feel like a nobody in ur life.
u make me feel like im always behind ur frens. gd for u. thanks for makin me feel that way.
have u ever bothered tokin to me? nt at all. im always online but so wad. i tell u wad
happens during the day. have u? u nv bothered to. im sure u're thinkin, 'i juz dun feel like
talking', 'must we talk?', 'wads there to talk abt?'. honestly, these questions came only
because u cant be bothered. im always online. but...the only time i usually will hear
frm u is when u wanna slp already. nothing else. n u will ans me 'u wanna talk u talk la'
wads the point in talkin when its only me talking?
ever since last may/ june, things changed. u changed. the way u treated me changed. everything
changed. im nt sure if u realise that. mayb u nv will. coz u will nv think. i can say, the only time
i actually felt like i meant sth to u was the first two weeks when u're in tekong. after that never.
things gt back to wad it was.
first yr was great. things were sweet though we quarrelled alot. i agree, i demanded u
to do things. i wanna see u every single day. i agree the first yr u did alot for me, to please me.
but after that? nv. i've changed. i've learnt my lesson. i did wad i could. wad abt u?
hav u asked urself wad did u do for me ever since? wad efforts did u put in?
where were u when i was in my most down period? most stress period? i felt like u dun
ever cared when i was sick. u nv bothered askin how i was. its the simpliest things u always
dun bothered doin. i duno if u think its a chore? i duno.
mayb like u said. everything i do, is a waste of your time.
how else should i be feeling? i guess i juz hav u to thank for making me feel like
miss nothing. THANK U VERY MUCH.

its obvious u wun agree with wad i said. its always a waste of my breath.