sick

i've fallen sick.
vomited twice yday.
seen a doc at 11plus and its proven food poisoning.
:( feeling real weak.
plus having my monthly thingy. juz aint helping.
cold sweating everyday.
my hubby said he miss me lesser than i miss him.
haha...a lil funny. but too sad. hope he has more time for me soon.
love ya darling.

who am i? really....

who am i?
am i really ur so-called gf?
y? y does the guy i loved always put me last?
y is it im nv important to him?
y cant he tell me hes sick?
y must i find out from his fren?
y din he bother informing his GF?
WHO THE FUCK AM I?

my heart is crying. my eyes are red.
i no longer feel loved.
i feel like gf is juz a name.
im tired. im tired of caring, tired of missing, tired of loving.
i juz wish im dead.
y is there no one that ever cared abt me?
where is my place in ur heart?
im wondering.
juz waiting in vain i feel.

missing u

"Darling.. Listen to me.. The longer the wait.. The stronger our hearts will bond together.. We must be patient n cherish this relationship ok.. "

thats wad u told me. does it really work this way?
i feel so hurt, so sad. deep down inside im juz crying everyday n night, praying that u're by my side. it really hurts so bad. pls come back to me soon.
im waiting here for one day u tell me u can meet me, spend time with me.
i dun like to be dissapointed. last week u told me 19th & 20th. but none was fulfilled.
can u hear the cries in my heart?

our life together as one

*pic of me at weizhang's bbq. thats his dog mobey. really cute.

its u i love now. no more turning back.
i've let go of my past n look to our future.
i'll find a place to have our lil lifes together once again.
i love u hubby. =)
i hope u loved me juz as much.
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to you,

loving is never easy.
the day u told me u will give up is the day i hated u.
i hate u n i hate her juz as much.
i wish u luck with lil gal.
u told me to nt look back.
i dun wish to anymore.
u've hurt me juz as bad. its fair n square.
let me know when u have told ur family we're over.
i'll do it after.