peace

happy or not?
sad or not?
free or not?
miss it or not?
i duno how i should feel.
i duno who is to blame.

perhaps its true. its always the same.
take it or leave it. reality of this dumb world.
swallow it down with all the pride u have and get on.

its a new life i should have.
i hope i have the peace, lord.

he surprises me in his lil ways

everyone that i haven met for so long said i put on weight!
damnit. its time i lose sum kilos. BLEAH!
cannot take it.
hate to know that i've put on weight. and yet i noe it myself.
for once today, the seamstress say i lost weight! hahahaha.
maybe she sees me quite often. oh man. that would mean i was
even fatter nt long ago!?

feels like my insomnia is back again.
i nv seems to have enough slp.
wake up always feeling stil slpy.

today, baby surprised me AGAIN!
his usual way is to pop his head into the shop n say hi
when i tot he is stuck in camp. bleah. he really made my dull dull
work day feel so much better. i guess nights are the happiest time of
the whole day. haha...love u dear.

send me a get well card.

two weeks of holiday for cny.
BULLSHIT.

im so sick. i feel tired.
no matter how much i slpt.
it nv seems enough.
pls get well soon.
i need a break.

xing nian kuai le

sad. its the end of the public holidays. im back to work tmr.
very much draggin it.

cny is not over yet but this yr it has been boring. but of coz
mine cannot be compared to my duckie's. hes been complaining
about how bored he is everyday. and i finally had a day free enough
to go his place to acc him today. he cooked for me. a mushroomy meal,
with red wine and had chocolate fondue. yummy.

thurs was my last day at work. and my lil bro fell sick that
night. acc him n my mum to the 24 hrs clinic which refered him
to kk hosp. he was admitted for two days. he had fits
so needed further observation. hes more or less better now.
but mum n i hav both fallen sick. CNY and im SICK! lost my appetite
to eat alot of things. sigh. had sore throat at first but now its juz left with
stupid block nose cum running nose? i cannot breathe!

tts all for now. im feeling terrible. gdnite.

ths night he was admitted. he showing me his 'ranger' tag.

the next morning. he look perfectly fine right?
doesnt look sick at all. to think that he had asthma attack
that morning.

i think i look more sick than him. maybe i should be the one admitted.
haha.