is it wrong of me to hav feelings n be human to cry n to miss sumone? y do u make it sound like im so fuckin wrong? im nt living in self pity. but this is juz how i fuckin react to things. i cry, i lose my fuckin appetite, i wanna kill myself. im stupid n dumb n a fuckin bitch that deserve to be better of dead. i can cry so i should fucking be happy abt it...i should fucking be able to cry n move on...while u can go on saying u cannot cry even if u wan to. yes im plain lucky n so god damn emotional that i can cry n cry n cry n cry. so i should juz jump for joy that i can cry....YAY! im happy i can cry! im happy! so wad if i stop myself huh? does it mean that i move on...fuck no! if its so god damn easy to let go of sumone u love so much then in the first place i dun think its love. imagine losing ur wife. can u juz cry once n say u move on? hell no! y does everyone make things sound so fucking easy?
can no one see that im tryin? can no one tell how much i wish nth ever happened? y r u making things harder for me? sumtimes i go to u so that u can juz fucking cheer me up so that i can stop thinkin...n nt get scolded by u!
i am the most pitiful gal in the whole fuckin god damn world. u get tt...happy now?
im living in a black n white world...in a cage of my own. where only my presence is felt. all alone without u. click here for album. went sentosa with sheryl on sat again...stayed there frm 1-6pm. suntanning!! after tt we went musical fountain. haha...was a fun night. after which i went chinatown to meet the sec sch gang...n cabbed home.
i miss the sun, sand n sea already...think i should live there.
i really love this babe! heee...click 'BABE' for album.
i juz finish my report n handed it up todaY!!!! im so so so deprived of my beloved sleep. tired yet cannot slp. interesting eh...insomnia.. how weird. im doin sth that im suffering frm.. my day has been pretty much ok today..no emo night..gd. heh. after handing in, i felt like a weight has been taken off..feels gd. so off i went to pamper myself with sum shopping...i spend like 30 over bucks!!! earn the money by being a maid for sumone...clean up his room...crazy shit. but oh well im paid. who cares...so yes i hav money to spend...but i wanna save...heee...no more spending like crazy...control!!! haa...im so glad ning controlled me today. haha...if nt, i'll probably buy the whole chinatown. im freaking tired right now...(like finally). so im goin to bed. gdnite all...
