a day im seen myself

its a sat! for today, i decided to spend my day with my cousins!
actually tot of goin out n we can hang ard n tok n hav fun. haha.
but karen tot of sth better. cook! haha. yummy chicken salad, potato salad,
spag and gula melaka!!!! i cant wait. haa. im gettin hungry tokin abt it though
i juz had my lunch. haha. daddy made noodles which is damn nice too.
my feast day man. hahaha.

i juz finish doin housework. hahas. kinda hav dry hands n achin back now.
sigh. feel like im gettin old. my body seems older den my age.
my feet n hands r kinda wrinkled. goodness. hahas.

im here wasting time waitin for karen n my aunt to finish buyin stuffs.
mayb they can come fetch me to their hse. haha. dar dar has plans for
tonight as well. hes goin dinner to celebrate his daddy's belated bday.
uncle seems busy all the time. i hope dar dar wun be as busy if he gets into
air force. hahaha.

yeah! its overnight at karen's place tonight again. i realise i hav been stayin
overnight there alot nowadays. haha. the only place i can stay overnight at.

let me share a webbie with u guys. its quite stupid. but fun if u're bored.
http://www.subservientchicken.com

im sorry.

i duno wads wrong with me.
i feel like im being really paranoid these few days.
i tink so much. i feel like my brains goin to burst.
im so sorry abt wad happen dear.
i juz hope u understand.
im fearful of things that i hear.
i noe its nt true but im juz afraid.
of wad i duno.
i feel really confused in me.
i stil feel the hurt in me.

i noe its over. but im juz afraid.
mayb i deserve to be scolded by u today.
im sorry.
i juz wanna be happy but y is it that im stil so afraid of everything?
i wish i can forget the hurt.
its haunting me.
dear sorry. i hope im forgiven.

masked.

im livin in a world of deception.
wads shown in front may nt be the truth.
what lies beneath is.
wad is the truth n wad r lies.
can u tell the difference?
when one is unhappy can u sense it?
when one is feelin loved do u noe?
when one is feelin lonely can u tell?
is one feelin sad when she cries?
is she really happy when she smiles?
who can really know?
no one but herself.

my tots.

im stil depressed abt the SIP. it really sucks.
esp when ur dad starts sayin its nothing. n workin life's like that.
mayb its true. but i guess it stil hurts. nvm

well, my precious sweetheart is back by my side. really lovely to hav him again.
hes stil as sweet as usual. =)
takin things slowly. im hopin things wil last. but i duno.
mayb i hav no faith in myself sumtimes. i dun wanna lose him again.
but i noe its nt up to me. im juz lettin things go.
lettin it be. wadeva comes. take it. i guess i've learn to take things
easier. tryin my best nt to tink too much into everything.

well, tmr's my hols!! one day. sigh. nvm better than nothing.
goin for a tan at the pool. haha. den watchin starwars in the evenin i guess.
nt sure yet. we'll see. i hope i get black nt red!!!