lonely xmas

merry merry xmas...

lonely lonely xmas...

indeed i feel so bored this xmas day. xmas eve was nice. had dinner at brandon's place then went to take a walk at esplanade to countdown to xmas.

xmas day. woke up and had lunch with kel n his mum at beach road. then went home rested awhile before he starts packing. he left at 4plus to go to the airport with kenny. and i waited awhile more till yaoquan came n pick me up to go parkway to buy josh's xmas present. had nth to do again since he needs to go back home for dinner and he will only come out later in the night. so i went back kel's place n had maggi mee n watch HK drama with his mum. at 1030, once again stupid karine tua me. luckily yaoquan did nt abandon me and i met him at zouk at 11. they had a guest DJ from bangkok at zouk playing rnb. we sat at a corner and just drink and look at the crowd but later in the night we met his frens at the smoking area and gt dragged to the crowded dancefloor. at 3, i told him i wanna go home already. but sadly his alcohol level was still off limit so we went eat prata, drink teh...hang ard till 4 before he is finally below limit. haha...and we can finally go home.

today i slpt till 3. waited for mum n bro to come back home. then went dinner at causeway point. im practically home the whole day.

tomorrow, going out with jon, together with mum n bro in the afternoon. probably another simple day. oh well the only best part is...it will be monday soon. and dear will be back in the morning. looking forward to lunch with him...if he will nt change his mind last min.

feeling pretty down nw and i duno y. gdnite.

thanks justin!

whee! my blog has finally been revamped!
many thanks to my dearest fren, justin! hehe
pretty and simple design! i like!

and since im blogging here. i might as well give an update. i dun really noe wad to say actually. hmm...lets just tok abt my weekend. fri night i went to drink with kevin...nth much. just drink and play games. best part of it was i was still sick. -_-

sat, had a pri sch gathering. interesting isnt it? after ten over years, almost the whole class of 6C met up. updated each other on wad we are up to nw, had our 8-course dinner at Deli-Vege. and after dinner, guess wad happen to me????? I FELL (down the freaking stairs)...argh. landed on my butt and nw i have a freaking blue black. sucks.

sun, went JB with dear dear, sam, yinlan and jackson! its fun! we had lunch in spore before driving in...smart move as the jam took more than an hr. went straight to city sq to do some shopping, then proceed for our massage session, of coz before that nt forgetting eating chuanchuan. heh...the chilli is deliciously great! haaa...after dinner at taman sentosa we wanted to proceed back to spore but there was a freaking terrible jam once again so we detoured to Danga bay for a walk. since it doesnt matter be it u stay in JB longer or get stuck in the jam, u end up reaching home late. Danga bay changed alot from the last time dear n i went there. theres a fun fair which yinlan n i went for a ride (Matterhorn)...i was hoping it went faster while she was screaming at the top of her voice. after tt we proceeded back...i was soooo glad i could stay another night with dear. :)

mum n josh is going to vietnam this tues till sat. i'll be home alone with dad. nt sth i very much look forward to but its oki. the home might just have a lil more peace n quiet since dad n i hardly tok. n josh isnt ard to make too much noise...hahahahaha...but i will miss that lil boy. my dear is going to bangkok this fri. sigh...y is everyone going holiday? nvm its my turn to go on the 31st dec!!!! phuket here i come!! its my first trip with dear dear. love it! heehee. i cant wait for it...

ok thats alll! cheers everyone!

its been another long time

haha...yes i am back finally. its been really long since i blogged...
i think my blog is getting boring...wonder if anyone still bothers reading it...
anyway, many unhappy things had happened...but since they have already pass lets nt tok abt it now.

hmmm...work's been the same boring thing everyday...it just gt worse as boss has been BIAS like mad...n its damn obvious...so wadeva. no matter how much hardship designers put in...it will nv be as much as the stupid proj managers who i think SOME just dun do anything much....but then....so wad...boss thinks that they are damn stress...great! suddenly i totally agree with dear that design in spore really sucks...we are like machines...like a factory...we do n think n do n think...but we are nv appreciated much. sometimes i do wonder if this is the life i wan. even the word passion is dying...sigh...then again, if i dun do design theres nth im interested to do...i'll stick with wad i can do i guess...

love life has been gd n bad...im simply in love with that stupid dumbass dearest of mine. hehe...he nv fails to make me wanna kill him yet im always damn happy just to be with him...is he the love of my life? is he really gonna be the one for me? i hope so...

mum cant wait to marry me off..haha...she said yea...so that she can move all my things away n let my bro have a room. damn...can i nt get married n just stay at dear's for gd? hehe...i miss those days when i get to have dear beside me...hug me to slp when i needed a hug badly, kiss me when i stare at him while lying on the bed. those nights where we can watch dvd together, do work together...i miss them all.

its time to head to bed...duno y i decided to blog today...but thats all...cheers to all my frens who still reads my dying blog!
hope all of u are doing well.

upside down

i wish for a simpler life. a life that i am happy everyday.
does true happiness exist in this world?

i expect too much, i get upset too easily. i love him more than anything.
but....is my love appreciated? does he love me at all?
my life is so full of unanswered questions and it makes me cry.