restless love

if only the world can stop when we're together.
if only time stay where it was.
if only we can turn back time now.

frustrated with life i am.
sometimes i wonder y god let me suffer this way.
y cant i just be with the man i love so much?

im tired. i wanna rest.
good night now everyone.
its time to rest.

our love lies in my heart

hearing your voice just comforts me...
it lets me know that you are doing fine.
i have missed u so much darling.
i hope u are missing and thinking of me every min too.

HK must be a fun place. though i've been there when i was younger.
i cant really rem where to shop, where to find nice things to eat.
where is romantic...i guess u noe where to find those places.
one day i will go visit you one day. be with u. lie by your side...
i wanna bear hug u like i used to. look at u when u fall aslp.

u look gorgerous u noe that? when u're aslp, when u're awake.
darling u just look great no matter where u are, what u wear,
in all ways u look great. i love u baby...i longed to see u.
i hope i can see u soon. i need to save money...and find the right time...
just wanna be with u alone baby...just the two of us.

missing you

My heart aches when I talk to you
My heart aches when I don’t hear from you
My heart aches when I long for you

I don’t know why
You’ve taken over my thoughts
I can’t explain

You’re still a stranger
Far away
I want you close by

I miss your embrace
Holding you close
My heart aches

I miss you!

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darling i want you more than you can imagine.
i might have tried to move on with life.
but truly i've missed you every min.
the poem speaks of whats deep down in my heart.
i wish you tell me how much you want me.
i wish you show me how much you love me still.

loving him and not forgetting

my last entry i tok abt my sucky life, my ex who cheated & my job which i lost.

this week i shall tok abt how complicated love is.
been tokin to m. finding out how he is...gt me into missing him more than i already did.
he called me in HK, i called once a awhile. so far actually only once.
he mentioned : " its a pity we have to end like this."
was it because of wad everyone say abt him that made me believe that everything i see
is true? im really confused. i love m, up till now i stil do. i cant forget him, dream of him,
miss him.
today he dedicated a song to me. and when asked what is the thing he remember of our
r/s, he answered. "u are like my hands , my legs and my mind.. u just know how to do everything to lessen my burden in anyway..." i melted.