stupid love...

im goin to the singapore flyer later this evening!!!!!!!!!
with my mum n bro. i cant wait. though my dream is to go up with darling but
i guess it does no harm goin with mum n bro first. theres always another time
to go with darl when he's free. :)

darling's been busy like a bee. no time for me. whats new anyway.
sometimes loving someone we just gt to learn to accept things.
if we cannot accept things the way they are, and the other party couldnt change,
there is no way things can ever work out.

love is a really complicated thing.

*to bestie:
i really hope u think abt things bet u n him. he sucks to me. and i dun see why u should ALWAYS
be the one doin things for him. he doesnt deserve u. if gaming is so important to him, he should
just date his games, be in a relationship with his games and marry his games. it hurts me to see
u crying coz of him...and the next day u could stil send him to work n stuffs. wad? u're his
personal chauffeur? i know you willingly do all this for him but is it worth it? does he appreciates it?
what can he do for u in return? my answer for u....NOTHING. i hope u dun let me words be on a deaf
ear. dun hurt those that really care n love u. like me & u noe who. u two been together for a long time...
i know its hard. but in the long run, if things are stil this way, you're goin to suffer more.
think abt what i've said to u at simpang bedok. i believe i made sense to u.
i'll be here whenever u need. love u! *huggles*

my heart

*took this from bestie's blog.
totally meant everything im feeling.
i miss him. though he is right in front of me while im typing this entry.
i miss holding his hands n hugging him tight...sigh

sorrows fills my day

i used to be happy. i used to smile.
i used to have you by me. where are you my love?
each day seems to pass slow as the dark clouds fills my day.

i seem to be clubbing alot more...i seem to be drinking alot more.
i seem to lose control of myself. im afraid to be sober. i need you.
please come back to me soon.

dun doubt my love for u though i betrayed you first.
dun doubt me no more...for i've made up my mind to only love u now.

the true love of us...

my precious came back...
its all that i ever wished for...
i love him so much i'll never do anything to hurt him ever again...
this promise is made to myself n him.
i'll be stupid to ever lose my future husband again...
he's the only one who will really take care of me for the rest of my life...
the one that loved me so much he cares deep inside..
the one that is always there to support me thru ups & downs...
we laugh & cry together...i'll never wanna be left alone without you again darling.
NEVER.

i totally regret whatever i've done previously...im sorry...