baby's back

my darling's back, stressed...tired...unhappy.
now...i duno to be happy or sad that he's back.
he doesnt even seems happy to see me. but i missed him very much...
i cannot believe after so long of our so called relationship without proper dates...
i stil love him so much. can i ever give him up for my own happiness sake? i wonder.

for now, i love u hubby.

AHHHHHHHH!

hate to say i love you...
i hate love. i hate loving. i hate everything about love.
it sucks sumtimes it really does.

i've been drinking till my stomach is goin to give up on me soon.
i think it hates me.

silence me.

words are not to be spoken.

the goodbyes

its year 2008 already. one month has almost passed as well.
doesnt feel like a new year. everything seems to remain as it is.
my health seems to be falling as days passed.
face looks pale, body weak. life's really short huh.
i never expect myself to be down with such an infection.
maybe if i die, it'll be a good thing. as for now, i dun even dare to plan ahead.
i might juz be gone tmr. sadly, he stil doesnt seems to treasure me.
i feel this world there really isnt anyone i could really trust.
im too afraid to trust. its time i leave this cruel world.

goodbye my love.